Paparazzo: Episode Three

Announcing Episode Three of Paparazzo, a radio show about culture broadcasting from Paris, France. I don’t know how to edit audio. I know that Mogadishu is in Somalia. I have permanently damaged my brain.

[Previously: Episode One, Episode Two.]

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163 thoughts on “Paparazzo: Episode Three

  1. Danny L Donian

    Hey all you rockers out there.A word of advice from a old hippie divorce really hurts.I do not know,maybe never will why my wife(still) kicked me out.orders of protection she got.We talked,she came up here to WI and it was the best day i have had in almost two years.So lonely.Divorce is hell on earth.I try to keep on working on my films and guitar playing.Got Cancer,beat up,robbed,hooked on herion.And thats the good times.I just lost my brother Mike.I lost my wife and son Caleb,he hates me so much he changed his name from mine!So if anyones thinking about divorce,forget about it,the Beatles said “We can work it out” I guess my wife never understood the words.Funny thing is i still love her,allways will.Danny Donian

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  2. Danny L Donian

    Divorce is hell on earth,when your baby kicks you out and you got no guitars,no cash and no dope!Hey i am going to tell every one in my niegborhood ,that silly little womansdont do me no good,someday baby aint gona be trouble anymore,one of thees days and it wont be long,ya going to look for me and ill be gone,someday baby yaaint gonna be trouble for me any more!(Jimmy rogers)Hey my wifes got my Peace Tapes masters!Give em back,i will cut you in!I still Love ya!

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  3. miss no name

    first of all, you got your guitars, you got cash and food in your belly and you obviously got dope if you got hooked on herion, unfortunately, half your bitching is bull shit and the other half is bad, saying that about your kid, it’s a lie and it’s wrong… saying you got cancer, you FREAK, you don’t have cancer you got please pity me disease! and what else? i dunno. need an expert. and you aren’t the only one ever hurt by divorce and dats for sure. and when you say you gonna kill someone in the family, you get kicked out, and i’m sure that’s in any family, so you know why you got kicked out…quit your wah wah

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    1. Danny L Donian

      Wrong! Every thing but “my Kid hates” me is true.So he does not hate me great!”Its better to burn out than it is to rust my my hey hey.”Niel Young copyright 1979 Warner Brothers

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  4. Danny L Donian

    “well i lay my head on the railroad tracks,poor ,poor pitiful me.But the train dont run by here no more poor,poor pitiful me.Miss no name AHA.I know someone like that,she is beautiful,sweet and cool! By the way the above is a song by Linda Ronstandt.copyright Warner brothers,1977

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  5. Danny L Donian

    Hey, I met some street guitar players,sat in with them in this little tourist town and played a few sets,five hours later and around a two hour version of “knockin on heavens door” and “Pegeo” and a lot of Bob Dylan numbers, the open guitar case was full of money.I started the night with two dollars and went out to pick some flowers for Torri,i came back with one flower in my suit jacket,and around a hundread bucks.When i can feel my fingers again,i might try that again.Things like that happen once in a lifetime,and i sit here and wonder what my sons doing far,far away.Rocker Dan

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    1. Danny L Donian

      ahh,well i have to say somethings that need saying,last night i met Sean and keven.They were ,well Sean was around 21 years of age,keven about 24.I did not have $100.00 at the end of the night as i put most of the money back.Some nice olded gentleman forced quite a bit of money on all three of us,my former figure was base on seans plea to split all of the money between all of us.I left all but around $20 in thr guitar case.Just the fact that we were all there and theese musica makers were so kind.We had quite a night.sean gave some phone numbers of some “yonger” girls to Keven.Some rel “lookers” wanted to meet us,but we were to busy,they takeing sips from a metal flask half full of wisky,me on my time released medication.

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  6. Danny L Donian

    but what i never will forget the power of music,and how even the most out of site distrctions were far away.A fire truck rouned the corner and gave a real powerful wave.arms sticking out as if to say PEACE man keep on playing,cops turning there heads in somewhat schock(Rocker Dan?)and all the kind people that came up,mostly collage kids on there way to one bar or anotherjust happy to see a part of historey on the corner.Yes it wont happen again like that,but the thing i will allways realy remeber is when sean turned to me and said”do you know everyone in this place?I also rember and (will never ever forget)He saying to me yu are free,refering to my divorce(which is not final) and the kindness theese kids bestowed on this old,long haired rocker.As one tippsy group said”who are you,fumblig for word,i said ahh no one,this dude replied yes you are your somekind of old school rocker.i did see alot of people i know,however i am finding out that alot of people saw me when i was in a world of my own,in my own eliment.Playing music,with some Irish guys who had just met themselfs.Keep on playing.Never give up your dreams for they are right around the next corner.As allwasy PEACE! Rocker Dan

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  7. Danny L Donian

    High,I am Dan Donian,As i sit here i wonder if and how many people will see this,it is stamped with the date at the post.Maybe today,maybe a hundread years.I sould let anyone whos sees this,who might be thinking about divorce.I should let you know,i still am in love with this girl.(my wife).As sit her,hours before court on the divorce. (later next week i have court on how i violated her oder of protection)As i sit her after 20 months of divorce i wonder who wants it more her,or the lawyers?Surely not me!So as i sit here i am listening to Lind Ronstant,looking at my full bottles of Oxycontin and Valium.how many would i have to take to drift off to dream land,a place that seems so far away,but obtainable never the less.No not today,not ever! I have 240 tabletsThat is the stuff you think about in the wee samall hours of the mornig,and wheres my Son who left for collage without saying goodbye.Thats how bad divorce is i do not recomend it!And no i am not takeing the pills,just daydreaming of the past and thinking about the 26 years she and i were together.(and the pain of the futre and growing old alone without her))And i think its going to hurt me for a long,long time.And i will allways love her.Danny

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  8. Danny L Donian

    Well I decided to make this my journal,now allot of you out there in space hopefylly wont need to read this,as i myself are not saving the wrighting i am (and have been) embarking on a journal of my divorce,i promise not to boar anyone.I have written a book allready,and i do not want one on this,so you might say this is text that will not be printed.I went to cort today driven by my freind and partner in bullshit Dave.We went to court for my going on 2 year divorce,my wife had an idea to divorce me.Anyway dave and myself went there to have her lawyer tell me that he and my criminal lawyer Jed were going to have her order of protection modified.like a car,or well what the hell designer orders of protection?Court on my 2 contempt charges is next Monday(for sending E- Mails that she thought i was suicedl.Long story that ruined my summer.See the cops take over,she went to “help me”and the police turrned me into Dr.Richard Kimbel.On the run from the cops up her cuse it could take days. It was the july 4th crap,and extrodition back to ILl. could take daysin jail.So ran and raised the bail$2500.00(10%)of $250,000.00.And My ciminal lawyer who has represented me before,$5000.00.Whoa! So i have no money.I need money for my medication $600.00.Its all i look forward to anymore.See i wont boar ya! Later.Peace!!!! Danny

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  9. Danny L Donian

    Desperado,you know you aint getting younger,your pain and your hunger are driveing you home,and freedom,oh freedom,thats just some people talking,your prisioners walking thru this world all alone,Dont you think its cold in the wintertime,the sky wont snow and the sun wont shine,its hard to tell the night from the day.your looseing all your highs and lows.anit it funny how the feeling blows away,desperado.(words by Joe Walsh) best sung by Lind Ronstant.copyright 1977 Warner bothers.

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  10. Danny L Donian

    Yes Joe Walsh was an Eagle! His voice is like a freind from the old gang Woodie,Linda Ronstant is the best at any song,thats why James Taylor,Niel Young,Dolly Parton,Joe Walsh ect.Lets her sing,give her music another try, I am to sad to here that tonight.i did earlier,with less than sad results,but great music,it has been a long day my friend……….. Peace, Miss no name

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  11. Danny L Donian

    Well i guess the divorce is over almost.I have Tuesday to wory about the state wants to get me in trouble for saying i would blow up the court house,(kidding on the phone with Fat Tony)some looser taped me and turned the tape in,i have never seen it,but the former Judge did and thats why they suppenaed the sheiff.But not the deputy(bad joke)So they can paint me crzy,yes sir NFP.thats me!One should never care what other people think of you.It is a motto to live by,for those who sit in judgement of others SUCK!I am so numb my doctor having seen me between two court dates last week.Sad.Sad.Sad.This time tomorow,where will we be?

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  12. Danny L Donian

    O.K.one of the strangest things happened again(evryday day)My brothers widow sent me a bunch of pitcures,because outside of a bunch my wife?Former wife?Got to find out.Does not matter.Well it does,but on what level,the lawyers will send me a bill and i will see then.Anyway i am looking thru the photos,very sad,sad,sad,sad,I see my brother and me in one of those studio photos,He ,Mike in his marine dress uniform,me in a little checkerd tux compleate with a bow tie…………..what happened to my lifes?then there is all theese other great photos,all the time hopeing to get some of my wife and son,there are two.my friends have been giving me thier best phtos of eveyone,my auant Verna who was so special to me,my wife,my Son.Then a photo dropped on the table,stuck between some others.A photo of a girl named Darla,the mother of my daughter Amber.And on the side my niece Rhonda who died a few years back at age 28.ihave been trying not to look at it,but i put up and you can hear the Pink floyd song”and then one day you find,ten years have got behind,no one told you when to run,you missed the starting gun”from time,from the album dark side of the moon Copyright 1972 Capital records,TEN YEARS THIS PHOTO WAS 30 years ago!But if i never parted with or went back to califrnia,i never whould have met my wife,or had my son,who i am so proud of.I miss my wife,soon to me my former and last girl of anykind.I think,think how and why so much i drive myself and others around me crazy so they give me meds to calm down,meds for my severe pain(much worse,stress adds ya know),when i first was kicked out of my house two years ago,i wore dark sunglasses and an i pod in my ears all the time,just stopping to nod,or say thank you for a cola,or whatever.Then i finaaly realised what was going on.Now i wear my dark suglasses and i pod again,and people around me just look sad.

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  13. Danny L Donian

    Hey Now,i had a great Thanksgiving with my friends family!14 of us had turky and pie and i drank a few (i never do that!)I sure miss my wife and Son and daughter.But i miss being a part of a family.Divorce sucks more than just about everthing.If i had my way.if i had my way,if i had my way i would tear this ole building down!Peace,one holiday down,two more.Wonder if i will make it or just OD?

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  14. Danny L Donian

    Ahh Come on now my son is the greatist!Caleb Donian, your Dad loves you.I fought the law and the law one(for now)Papa was a rolling stone,The orders of protection will be over soon,the cops and my lame wife Susan Donian should let me talk to my son,stupid girl,stupid world.One day will be together again Danny Caleb is MY son as well .

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  15. Danny L Donian

    Divorce is a bad thing.Do not try it,unless you hav no other option.I have been here in exile for comming up on two years this Valintines day.Yes my wife kicked me out(with several police in riot gear on that day!I used to love her,but as of uesterday,that love died.Now what am i going to do besides re-release the Peace Tapes?i will think of something.Love my Son,and Daughter.And grow older.

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  16. miss no name

    this comment goes out to you ‘little’ people with little tiny fucked up freaked out minds that believe gossip is appropriate anywhere, anytime, including ‘breakrooms and lunchrooms, et cetera’ and that talking about co-workers or any person for that matter behind their backs is decent or even remotely acceptable behavior; for your information, gossip is immoral, unethical and ILLEGAL…it’s called slander and libel (if written) and defamation of character and are FELONIES,(UNCIVILIZED)gossip is EVIL, so if you gossip it makes you EVIL and you are perpetuating more EVIL, and in this Country, U.S.A., it is a CRIME, so, my best I can say to you is, karma can be a bitch and so can the lawsuits so shut your mouths

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    1. Danny L Donian

      yeah,shes right,People should keep thier thoughts that are pesonally bad to themselves,cause ya never know when a “person like me” might hear and strike you down and beat your fucking brains out.Peace

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  17. mushrooman

    Oh hell i think my wife is a good moral cute person,i was a bad boy.Now i am allllllll better.Your better watch out,you better not cry,you better not fucking pout,i am telling you why!

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  18. mushrooman

    lay down my dear brothers,lay down and take your rest, a wont you lay your head, upon your head saviors breast, i love you oh but Jesus loves you the best, and i bid you good goodnight, goodnight, goodnight………………………………………………………………………………………………………….

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  19. mushrooman

    Give me a F…….five me U……..give me a C…….give me a b whats that spell,oh hell, i knew i should have stayed in school!

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  20. mushrooman

    Start The Day with a good breakfast.I found this “dish” a great way to star the day in todays world.hope this will be “helpful!” Start by pouring a half cup of Valium, Then add any pain meds you may be on(you can skip yhis if you are not onlegal pain meds!)Then add A 1/4 cup of Morphine, then add a full 8 oz Bottle of Ensure( i find vanila or choalateboth gret) and ENJOY!!!!

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  21. mushrooman

    I hate when people do not beleave you when you know your right!So i sing and play what is going to happen.Had enough.”id rather be in some dark hollow,where the sun dont ever shine,than to be home alone,knowing that you have gone,whould cost me to loose my mind,so blow your whisle freght train,take me far on down the track,i am going away,i am leaveing today,iam going away and im aint comming back.THE GRATEFUL DEAD copright Warner brothers music.1970 (Bears choice)

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  22. mushrooman

    “Joining Jerry” two “loosers”. ” Dont you push me baby becuse im moaning low, Because i know a little something you will never know.Dont touch hard liquer, just a cup of cold coffee,goona get up in the morning and go” Had it i got no chance of looseing this time. “looser copyright 1969.Warner brothers nusic Grateful dead(ice nine 1971).

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  23. mushrooman

    News, anyone that fucks with my wife,i will “take them out” so much they will ish they died as a baby.Dan,L. Donian

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  24. Danny L Donian

    NEWS:Its not common nowdays that we see anything that makes us feel good on T.V. .Tonights 83 annual Oscars finaly gave us a chance to not have to look at violecene, gays or trsah t.v for a change.The osacars is an event that up till tonight has been marred with swearing,gay rights,and general sleezeyness that seems to dominate all we see on the “little screen”.All that changed with the click of the remote control.The 83rd Oscars were filled with what movies and the actors should be made of instead of “headline grabbing” junk for BIG change.It takes us back to the days that were about the films and the people who make them.Magic,not “trash”.I was very happy to see a show that had no”childlike crap and also was way beyond words,a show that could stand on its own.A pleasent departure from all the mess this worlds been spinning out nowdays. The production values returned in a big,non threataing show of shows.The speakers were funny,the thank yous were not stupid,or long and most importently it was about the true art of filmakeing and all that is “Hollywood” proveing that “trash T.V.” might be on its way out.At least for me! Right on Osacrs,you entetained without someones boobs falling out,without exteane violence,and without makeing a stupid statements To all of us who yearn for the lackluster time we should expect from a fabulus night.For this i say bravo! My hats off to you Mr. Oscar! Danel lee Donian

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  25. Danny L Donian

    I am glad to see most people did not like the Oscars! It shows me that i am back going the wrong way in a right way world,i would have been scraed if the masses liked what i like.Kind of like me and just a special few liked a little known band called THE GRATEFUL DEAD.yeah i woke up in a world i hate.GOOD TO BE BACK!

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  26. Danny L Donian

    Oh man!I went on my late brothers bands website “The Royal Flairs” an clicked a song that was one of two or three on there,i turned on the speakers,and WOW my brothers band from the early 60s came blasting through screaming out one of thier classics.I cant tell you how strange it was/is to hear a song back from the grave,i still blast the internet.But give me a break!The web took me back to that day in 1964 as much as any one thing could ever do.”Suicide” the song is there along with pictures and other songs.Damn i miss my brother,and the 60s.I play now,first drums up till 1971 when i picked up a guitar(somoked weed the first time then as well)now i am old,but not when i go back to the future.Trippin., Dan”death of the crowd” Donian

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  27. Danny L Donian

    “Gimme Shelter” “If I dont get some shelter.oh i am gonna fade away””War childre is just a shot away,a shot away.Gimme,gime me shelter, oh i am going to fade away!”

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  28. Danny L Donian

    I allways thought my wife, whould “get back” with me.Now i know divorce is the only and final answer.Relly sad,but “holding my Son “hostage” for $50.000.00 is way beyond my threshold! See ta someday maybe,or maybe NOT! Soon to be your FORMER husband, Danny

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  29. Danny L Donian

    I will say one thing,i saw my wife,in a conference room out side of court.And a girl that beautiful GOD never made another! She is rely a “great looker”! And so prety. I will always love her,but time to move on into the void.Danny

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  30. Danny L Donian

    ” Cause its easyer to try,than to prove it cant be done,and its esyer to stay,than to turn around and run”………………………Its a blue world.THE MOODY BLUES,copyright 1972 Threshold records………………………….

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  31. Danny L Donian

    “I WAS LYEING IN A BURNED OUT BASEMENT, WHEN THE SUN BURST THROUGH THE SKY,THINKING ABOUT WHAT A FREIND HAD SAID,I WAS HOPEIN IT WAS A LYE” after the gold rush, neil young copyright 1970. Warner brothers records.

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  32. Danny L Donian

    “Just walk away Renee, you wont see me follow you back home” “The empty sidewalks on that block ae not the same, your not to blame” I feel like my heart has been ripped out today.i have become intolerent of anyone,and any thing.i have become a MONSTER.

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  33. Danny L Donian

    “Still waiting for somebody to do or say something bad about my wife Susan”,I will “take you out” you poor fools,i realy cant wait!Danny Donian(the old one)

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  34. Danny L Donian

    I am Finaly “Happy” my wife does not want me(can you blame her?) SOOOOOOOOO time to start my “new life” tonight a MAJOR JAM is happening here! Tryouts for a”SUPER GRPOUP!”Mexicans welcome! ROCKER DAN

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  35. Danny L Donian

    STRANGERS: “Where you going, i dont mind,ive killed my world and i killed my time.So where do i go what will i see,i see many people comming after me” “so where you going to i dont mind” ” if i live to long, iam afraid ill die” THE KINKS ARISTA RECORDS COPYRIGHT 1972. I woke up in a past dream.I feel like i just got here.People all know me cops dont scare me,i scare them.What did i say? who have i become?Why do girls want to talk to me?why do i play guitar so much better than i did?What happened to me?I realy should not care,when someone brings up the past,way.way back,i think was that me now? Or is that me then!Sure i miss things.I am a man with no pain.No remorse,really no sexual urges,those are for mortals.what have i become?People bore me.I like me,but i turned into a major asshole!And i like it.Till the end of the day,grom the momemnet i rise,everythings so blurry.and yet its crystel clear.I have become what i have allways feared,Myself.

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  36. Danny L Donian

    Charle Sheens a PUSSY! I CAN OUT DRUG HIM ANY DAY,ON WHAT MY DOCYORS GIVE ME! I HAVE HAD MORE GIRLS THAN HE COULD EVER HAVE PAID FOR,ONLY COST ME MY LIFE!ONLY ONE GIRL MY WIFE DID ME IN!(NO HARD FEELONGS,I AM CRAZY!!!!) I ALSO AM GOING TO GO BACK TO THE TOWN THAT DESTROYED MY FAMILY.AFTER MY WIFE LEAVES,AND OH MY FUCKING GOD IT WILL BE BEUTIFUL.I AM GOING TO “GET” ALLOT OF MAGOTTS AND FAGOTS.I AM GOING TO RIP OFF THIER NECKS AND PISS DOWN THIER NECKS!S THEY ARE GONNA LERN ABOUT LOSS! BETTER RUN,BUT YOU CANT HIDE.I WILL TRACK YOU DOWN LIKE A RABID DOG.AND I DO KNOW WHO YOU ARE,WHERE YOU LIVE,WORK AND PLAY.I AM RELY GONNA FUCK YOU UP YOU WORTHLRSS PIECES OF SHIT.AS ALLWAYS: PEACE

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  37. Danny L Donian

    “here I stand,head in hand,turn my face to the wall,if shes gone i cant go on feeling two foot small,every where people stare each and every day,i can see them laugh at me and i hear them say HEY youve got to hide your love away”

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  38. Danny L Donian

    I AM, AND HAVE ALLWAYS BEEN A MAN OF PEACE!!!!! SO ITS USELESS TO PRETEND I WOULD EVER HURT ANYONE ON PURPOSE: I MUST TAKE MY MEDICNE EVERY DAY,OXYCONTIN ER,OXYCODONE IMM AND VALIUM 10MGS, QID,THEN I AM PEACEFUL.I WISH NO HARM TO THOOSE PEOPLE WHO CONVINCED MY WIFE TO GET A DIVORCE,BUT I WILL TAKE PLESURE WATCHING THEM SLOWLY FADE AWAY AND DIE.TO THIS I DO ADMIT…………KHARMA WILL “GET YOU” I HAVE TIME. DAN L. DONIAN,FORMALY OF THE GRATEFUL DEAD EXTENDED FAMILY.

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  39. Danny L Donian

    FIRST OFF: I AM NOT THAT STRANGE FORIEGN GUY”DAN DONIAN COOL”,WHOS RACEBOOK PAGE COMES UP WHEN YOU PUT IN MY NAME TO GOOGLE!!!!What the fuck is a dada?????Any way wait he gets pulled over,and they “run him” for priors! he will change his name back to Yoo lee tao,or whatever the fucks his real name fast!Now that we got that out of the way,i have something to say(importent)I have been reading some of “my fan mail”you people are total fuck ups! Dont get me right,some of you are semmi O.K., the rest who read my”BLOG” are so stupid,get a life!First i dont “BLOG” i write!Anywho i do have something importent to say,i only like,and have “feelings” for young chicks.If i cant be with my wife (orders of protection)and a mean divorce, than i only want young chicks.I know why this is.My brain stopped most funtions in and around 1975,the year i allmost “graduated” high scool.As it turns out i got a honerary degree 20 years later at my 20th reunion!I got kicked out for giveing allot of people LSD.I had to flee the USA.Turns out i also missed Vietnam as well.Cool timeing!,now i am not a child molester,my brain did stop in the year of our loard 1975(some say 1978) a cause for debate.I think that now that my wife cant stand me is a “good thing” for her.Hers why,she has ben on a few dates.with several guys.She is a class act,and deserves the best,but i dropped the ball,by saying stupid things,and never realy grew up.I am a guitar player,a childlike dude who cant seem to cope with todays world.(which would worry me if i could!)And i take allot of LEGAL PILLS! My back was trashed by the Cook county sheriffs,while handcuffed for imperanateing a police officer.So fuck them(not all).There are some fine upstanding sheriffs,i have a few really great friends who are!Now back to my self.I have no remorse,And i stand by what i am.A monster.But take alook at the world,violence,war,and reality shows, a President,who clearly does not like the position hes been put in.A black man,takeing on a mess made by white people,kinda of feel sory for him,and suport him becuse its a job,that kicks you when your down.And really does not “pat you on the back”when you DO do something grand!So i keep reeling from the massive amount of “painkillers and tranks”.But my pains under control.THE PEACE TAPES will be streeming in a bit.I will allways be a “ghost” of what i could have,but rather a ghost,than a Moron! Peace, Dan Lee Donian.

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  40. Danny L Donian

    Hello World!!!! I relly want to know why allmost every guy out there has that shaved head,or close cut hair with a inbread like shitty beard.Ear ring or “rings” and could not look more crappy if they came out the rear end of a pig?Also tattoes,that one day they will be trying to explain to thier kids?WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON.I SEE GIRLS WITH THEESE GUYS,AND I CAN FEEL THE GIRLS STARES AT ME,MY HAIR IS LONG,NO NOT THE HIPPIE REAL LONG,THE KIND LIKE “MICK JAGGER” CIRCA 1972.I KNOW I LOOK GOOD,(HEY ITS GOOD AND HEALTHLY)TO “LIKE YOURSELF”,BUT WHY DO ALLMOST EVERY OTHER GUY THINK THEY ARE SO COOL?Man i know its a sign of the times to try and look like some actor or “rock star” but hey man why the white trash,inbread,marry your sister look?You are going to wake up one morning and blow your head off becuse you look like a jackoff!oh well,go ahead,leave the “chicks”for me.easy pickings.Danny

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  41. Danny L Donian

    Well i have got allot of “feed back” from my last post.Most stupid,but i still want to know why every or most everyone wants to look like justin Timberlake?Oh i know this is a moderen look,but hey,the girls HATE that look,i know becuse i was a girl!No not really,but i know a few.Inbread,sister fucking, wormeat!Have a nice gay!

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  42. Danny L Donian

    IMPORTENT: Facebook is a very dangerus place! I just”tracked”down a whole lot of people and saw the things they do,and places they go,and at what time they do them.I also saw thier friends,and went tru to see thier friends friends,and my my,i got an entie display of who,where and when people do things.Do yourself a favor,Facebook,does not make you populer,it tells people what a fucking moron you are,and most importently,where you are! Tear down the wall! Danny Lee Donian

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  43. Danny L Donian

    OK,TIME FOR MY THOUGHTS ABOUT WHATS GOING ON IN WISCONSIN: HERES THE REAL STORY.#1 THE UNIONS WANT MORE MONEY FOR THIER PEOPLE.WE(THE USA) IS OUT OF MONEY.#2 WHY SHOULD THE HARDWORKING,OR NOT SO HARDWORKING(ME) AND OTHERS PAY MONEY TO TEACHERS,WORKERS ECT. WHO HAVE RETIRED.WELL ITS GREAT TO HAVE SOME MONEY,FOR ALL THOSE YEARS OF WORK,BUT SOME PEOPLE ARE GETTING 70 TO 80% OF THIER PAY! NOW MOST JOBS DO NOT GIVE YOU ANYTHING FOR YOUR “GOLDEN YEARS” SO FUCK THOSE PROTESTERS,THEY ARE BEING STIRED UP BY “OUTSIDE” INFLUENCES.TIME TO SUPPORT THE GOVERNER ON THIS ONE,AND BELEAVE ME I LIKE PROTESTERS FOR THE RIGHT CAUSE! DAN LEE DONIAN,THE PEACE TAPES.

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  44. Danny L Donian

    BREAKING NEWS:WISCOSIN: Daniel Donian AKA “ROCKER DAN” TOOK HIS MEDICATION TODAY AS PERSCIBED,Dan said in an interview broadcast on “You Tube” before it was”flaged” “I stopped smokeing Marijuana” ” my Doctor and i have an agreement” “I stop,and i get meds to get out of the pain i have had most of my life” “And the pain caused by the Cook county sheriffs beating i receaved while hancuffed and on my face”.It is not known why the “Clip” was “flagged” But a spokesperson from You Tube said “Enough of this crazy celeb wanna be”!”Dan could not coment due to his medication”.

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  45. mushrooman

    Well the Sun finaly came out here! I felt good,a little pain in my leg,a very small twinge in me back,but I felt GOOD!So i went down to the lobby,and Rich handed me an envolpe.The mail had come! Well i went to the lounge to suck down one of Alexs great mixes of non acahol soda and opened my mail.It was pictures from my sister in law. I opened the envolpe and about 18 to 20 pitures fell out.Pictures of my girl Amber,her mom,my dog Jett,and a few pictures of my Son came spilling out on the bar.I had relly dressed up in black jeans,black shirt and a black pinstripe suit jacket.All of a suuden i could feel the girls at the bar and the bartenders looking for my reaction.At first i felt happy to get ANY mail out side of court papers.That feeling started to do something to my pain scale,and a sick wave came over me,people were talking to me,but i could not hear what they were saying,i grabbed my cain and pulled my hat down,put on my dark Ray Bans and started to leave,i was blocked by Kelly and a few other people i know.The people said”where are going,you just got here”,”whats wrong?”Gimme shelter,i left spending a whole 5 minutes outside of my room.I went to my medicine and forked down a handful of valiums,painkillers and water washed the evil mix down my fastly closeing throat.It was then i finaly realised what all my Lawyers have been telling me.Why the fuck would you want to give her(my wife) a Goddamn penny? You know i think i got it now. My wife makes me sick,HOW DARE HER! KICKING ME OUT TWO VALITINES DAYS AGO,SNOW STORM,NO COAT,NO MEDS,NO NOTHING.FUCK ME! I feel like a fool! At least my friends at the bar know i am just a CHUMP,and i will never forget the looks i just got.They know and have known what i now know.I cant wait for my divorce.i just cant wait,but i will.Thinking,sitting,playing guitar,and takeing pills to get rid of the pain she(wife) and the sheriffs caused.But which pain is worse?

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    Well i went back down to the pub,had a sandwich and sat alone.All at once,the news had spread that i was “a little sad”.No shit!So my friend Rodrego and a couple of the cooks supported the idea to contact my Daughter Amber.Now i dont beleave in Face Book,but Rodrego does.He went online,and with a little try he found her Face Book page.He sent her a invite with the caption,”your Dad wants to hear from you”.I have only talked to her once in 27 years.She was takein away by her mother Darla when she was two.He also took a great piture of me,to send when or if she acepts him as a friend on Face Book.As the resteraunt clossed and the doors locked,as the people swept up, a vain atemtnt was nade to contact Amber,MY Amber.Time will tell,Rodrego will call me WHEN Amber contacts him.All i can do now is pray.But the great part was i was sitting there with a bunch of tough dudes and they all had tears in thier eyes.”So you streched out in room 1009 with a smile on your face,and a tear in your eye”(shine a light)copyright the Rolling Stones 1972 from Exile on main street.Rocker Dan

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  47. mushrooman

    “I think,therefore i am,i think”.The Sun came twinkaling drops of a silver nature over the Wetlands i live next too,the mighty rays shot down in a slanted line at first giveing life as it shown.My brains been extreamly active from yesterdays events.I needed this gentle releaf from my quasi nightmarish sleep.I sprung out of bed to take my morning medicine.Just in time to head off the needle like pain that came way to early today.I put on THE MOODY BLUES L.P. “TO OUR CHILRENS,CHILDRENS,CHILDREN.I paused for a milasecond and washsed down my “mornig assortment of pills,knowing in advance i would not be going back to the hellish state of reality that is our world today.As the Sun rose i thought off another time i listened to this album.My Son was being born in a mornig quite like this,the Sun spread accross the land inching and sneaking around the dank brown trees alumeinating the corners that tried to hide from the impregnable rays!Morning in my state of exile.However i feel at home finaly.I acept my fate with extreame pleasure!As any hints of pain disapate,my coffee brews up a symphoney mixing with the almost God like sounds of a most happy,morowse group of songs that beckon me to think about that most happyof happy days of my sons birth,and my wifes stoic look of acheavement.i know soon i will be in a dark limo streaming past the countryside,headed for a “shoot” my camera i put by the door as i drink my energey and a second wave of comfort drenchs my pain away.I sit and think about the lodt chord,and my lost lives.Not careing anymore.The way i go is ahead.Forward. Dan

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    BREAKING NEWS:MORPHINE NEEDED FOR JAPAN, PLEASE SEND YOUR MORPHINE AND OXYCONTIN TO ME AND I WILL BRING IT TO JAPAN: I AM HEADING UP A “DISASTER RELEAF MISSION”.SEND ALL LABELED BOTTLES TO ME AND I WILL MAKE SURE IT IS PROPERLY DISSPENSED………..SEND TO HDT(HIPPIE DISATER TEAM)………………………………………………..

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  49. mushrooman

    I must say this:i am going through a divorce that i never wanted.My wife has been hearing bullshit about me from her “friends” now she is in a bit of trouble,and where are her “friends” now? Nowhere. I guess the lession here is there are allot of people out there who like to ruin other peoples lives,then laugh at them,and never lift a finger after they do thier dammage.All i can say is every FUCKER gets whats comming to them.It may take time,but it is better to wait and watch theese peoples lives blow up in thier fucking faces then to get yourself in trouble hurting them yourself.just wait,and KHARMA will fuck them or thier children up,while you forget about them and see or hear the dire results.Now some may say:”Oh thats terible!” I say die fuckers die!And switch the chanels.As allways Peace.Me

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  50. mushrooman

    Well that was FUN! Dave and Amber picked me up and surprised me,instead of Wal-Mart they took mr out to dinner at a small Chineese place.Dave got his Fathers car when his Dad passed,a Black 4 door pontiac which he installed a “killer” sound syatem,with 6 pioneer speakers.We went cruiseing,as they made note of the fact i have not been out except for court,taxes and Wallgreens after my Doctors.As we sped by all the girls bachtlorete partys walking down main steet(trying to look cute with lite up dildos around thier necks),Dave saw my displeasure and cranked out Black Sabbaths “Paranoid” at almost full volume,i sat in back as it is the pontiac version of a lincoln town car.Windows opened the song seemed to fit!” As i now tell you of my fate,i wish i could enjoy life but its to late!” Ozzie screamed thru the 6 packs.I sat in judgement of all the little “whores”as we stopped at a light(something we do once in awhile)a “team of girls” yelled something crude at us,i gave a long scary type of a drug induced glare at them,Dave seeing my look in the rear view,asked me please to not “do anything”so Amber yelled a “wheres your pimp” at them,as we sped off into the night.I could have sat in the back all night,but they wanted to go home and cuddle up and watch a movie i love “Oh brother where out thoh”So they dropped me off,the place where i am is realy rockin tonight,but seeing the mood i am in and the FACT that my wife hates me(she said it today)i went back to my cell.Goodnight you Fucking Morons.Dan

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    I was driveing thru the old “Hood” the other day,actualy Dave was driveing when we heard this noise we thought was comming from Daves car,”oink: “oink” “oink” so we stopped.We were on Park ave.right near the hospital.Again with the “oink” “onik” ‘Onik” we stopped once aagin. Nothing!so away we went trying to get on the highway before the “rollers”(cops)”oink”,”onik” “oink” this time Dave was mad(he never gets mad!)I got out and turned down The Grateful Dead so i could locate the source of our frustration.It turnrd out to be “Moma Pastaman” an old,realy fucking old lady, a friend of my Sons Mom. Lession here: poh white trash should not do thier laundrey outside while gruntting!ME

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  52. mushrooman

    Oh Man,anothr Saturday,another boreing “grey day” soon spring.SO THE FUCK WHAT? After spring,comes summer,then fall again,then anaother Holidat without my wife Sue,and my Boy Caleb!Why al this torture?I will tell you why,my wife listens to other people WAY to much,and shes stuburn as well.I miss her and my son so much,i cant take it (but i do)If only my Son new how proud i am of him! Do you think he remembers playing Thomas the tank on that plywood board my wife got us? Do you think he remembers how i quit show bussiness to take care of him? Does Caleb remember the intrakit drawings of train tracks we drew on that board? How about the major stash of hotwheels we had?Does he know that when i am out with Dave and Amber(Daves Girl) that i wander off,and they come and silently get me from the toy department looking at hot wheels? Do you think he knows i carry a piture of he,and have several up my friends have givven me,becuse i allways got doubled of every photo i ever took?and do you think he knows now my friends and brothers widow sends me those extras?Does he know i wanted to come to his graduation,but the fucking police were all over,and i would have been arrested?Does he know that i want to talk,but have been refusesd by judges and lawyers?Does my wife know that i still care for her,even as she has gone out on dates with other guys?Do you think Caleb knows that? Man i am al better now,dont even smoke pot.I just take my medicene and it works,without the side effects of sluring,falling anf generly being an asshole? Yesi take Oxycontin,and Oxycodone and Valium,but i make sense now and can think!Do you think Caleb knows my pain is four times worse since the Cook county sheriffs beat me,stuck guns in my mouth,jumped on me,.and kicked me while face down and handcuffed?Does he know my wife saved me that night and agin the next day when they took me out in the woods to kill me over the money he now enjoys?I wonder.Dan L Donian

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  53. mushrooman

    “THE TAXMANS TAKEIN ALL MY DOUGH,AND LEFT ME IN MY STATELY HOME LAZZIN ON A SUNNY AFTRNOON” “AND I CANT SAIL ON MY YAGHT,HES TAKEN ALL THE THINGS I GOT” LAZZIN ON A SUNNY AFTENOON” Sunny afternoon, the Kinks waner Brothers music. copyright 1966

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    I will tell you something,i spent two days of my life,trying to send a document to someone and another to a different person to help them.All i did was get fucked over by all.From now on i swear to fucking God,I am in this life for me,just me.Fuck eveyone else! The ungrateful motherfuckers!Dan

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  55. mushrooman

    YES,YES,YES,I AM DOING A CLASSIC ROCK PODCAST.I CANT ANSWER ALL YOUR E-MAILS ,BUT THANK YOU FOR THE FEEDBACK.YOUR STILL MOSTLY ASSHOLES BUT I AM STARTING TO LIKE ALL OF YOU! PEACE “ROCKER”

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    BREAKING NEWS: Dan Donian has decided to make my”blogs” (hate that word)open to the world:”From now on my poduceing will be a new “Podcast” complete with random interviews with “Classic” Rock n Roll stars from my years with THE GRATEFUL DEAD, to interviews with Richie Havens,Bobby Weir,Country Joe McDonold,David Crosby, Niel Young,Alice Cooper,Yoko Ono Lennon and more,also expect new songs never heard before that myself and my “crew have recorded as well as total concerts from such bands as THE BEATLES,THE GRATEFUL DEAD,RICHIE HAVENS and various other stars from when Rock WAS Rock!!!!also expect full chapters from my book”ORDERS OF PROTECTION”So stay tuned and check out my profile for pictures never seen before!Relax,light up and enjoy! Danny Lee Donianaka “Rocker Dan”

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  57. mushrooman

    DONT YOU JUST HATE WHEN PEOPLE DONT ANSWER THIER PHONE?WTF(WHAT THE FUCK?)ANOYED BEYOND BELEAF.ME,DA MAN………CHECK OUT MY PROILE BY CLICKING ON MY NAME,DA “MUSHROOMAN” “HERE ARE SIT ALL BROKEN HEARTED PAID TO GO NUMBER TWO,OH HELL?”

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    After a lot of e-mails,i found out you have to put the curser over my picture to see all the photos of rock n roll stars on my profile.OK>GOT IT! Thank you all! Peace,my reguler post is forthcomming: Peace RD

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  59. mushrooman

    WELL NOW I HAVE BEEN OFFERED SOME SEMI BIG BUCKS TO TRANSFER TO A NEW SITE FOR”BLOGERS” (STILL HATE THAT WORD!)I WILL CONYINUE TO POST MY HATERED OF THE HUMAN RACE HERE AS WELL.TODAY I READ A BIT ON THE INTERNET AND IT MADE ME SO FUCKING SICK,CHALIE SHEEN THIS,JESES JAMES AND HIS WHO KAT VON D THAT,PLANTS BLOWING UP HERE,OIL SPILLS THERE.TO MUCH.OBAMA DOING THIS AND THAT,WITH THAT “EVERYTHINGS GOING TO BE OK LOOK.NO ITS NOT YOU MADE FOR TV PRESIDENT! NO ITS NOT.”TO MANY PEOPLE,TO MANY RULES TO FEW LAWS(OR TO MANY)AND REALITY SHOWS THAT WE HATE BUT WATCH,I AM PULLING THE PLUG(NO NOT ON MY LIFE SUPPORT)ON MY CABLE…….BIG BREAK……LITTLE AS POSSABLE ON DA WEB.ECT.YESTERDAY I GOT A “SEVERE TROJAN WARNING!” AND MY FIRST POP UP ON THIS P.C. “DOWNLOAD THIS NOW! TO SAVE YOUR COMPUTER!” WELL I WENT TO MY SECURITY NORTON,AND DID A ERASE SCAN,FOLLOWED BY A FULL SCAN,AND A QUIK SCAN FOR GOOD MEASURE!WHAT THE FUCK MOST OF MY NIGHT WAS A PARINIOD SCRAMBLE TO SAVE MY COMPUTER,I SHOULD HAVE BLOWN THE FUCKING MESS OF ELECTRONIC METAL UP!VALIUM,DEEP BREATHS A PACK AND A HALF OF SMOKES.ALL FOR A POP UP! FACE IT THE WORLDS SELF DESTRUCTING,AND WE ARE HELPING,JERSY SHORE LOOKALIKES RANDOM SEX,I WILL LAUGH SO MUCH WHEN WE SEE THOSE CREEPS IN FIVE TO TEN YEARS ON A REMAKE OF THE GONG SHOW.FUCK IT,TIME TO GET OUT AND GET GUITAR STRINGS,NOW THATS DOING SOMETHING,COMPARED WITH THE AFORE MENTIONED CRAP:HAVE A NICE DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! RD

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  60. mushrooman

    WELL I HAVE BEEN HERE IN EXILE(ON MAIN STREET) FOR A TOTAL OF TWO YEARS AND ONE MONTH!I HAVE WRITTEN ONE BOOK,GOT ARESSTED THREE TIMES AQUIRED ONE FELONY,AND HAVE DRANK A TOTTAL OF 27 SHOTS OF “PATRON” AT ONE SITTING,GOT BEAT UP AND ROBBED ONCE ON MY BIRTHDAY TWO YEARS AGO,BEEN ON THE “RUN” FOR A VIOLATION OF MY ORDER OF PROTECTION,ACTUALY MY WIFES ORDER.BEEN HELD IN CONTEMPY OF COURT 4 TIMES,PLAYED AND LERNED 42 OLD/NEW SONGS MOSTLY BY THE ROLLING STONES.STARTED THIS GREAT “BLOG'(HATE THAT WORD)STARTED A NEW “PODCAST” SAW NO MOVIES WENT ON A COUPLE OF WORTHLES DATES,BOUGHT SEVEN PAIRS OF BLACK JEANS,TEN BLACK SHIRTS AND ONE PAIR OF BLACK SHOES.GONE THRU 4 TO 5 PACKS OF SMOKES PER DAY,GOT HOOKED ON HERION,SWITCHED TO OXYCONTIN AND VALIUM,FELL IN LOVE WITH MY DOCTOR(A GIRL)SAID NO SINCE SHE(DOCTOR WAS MARRIED)AND BEEN OUT ON THE LAKE 0 TIMES.TOOK 27 PICTURES AND DOWNLOADED AROUND 10000 SONGS FROM I TUNES,MADE 20 OR SO FREINDS,KEPT THREE GOOD FREINDS,ONE OR TWO GREAT ONES,HAD ABOUT 14 MAJOR PARTYS AND WATCHED THREE ACADMEY AWARDS SHOWS.FELL DOWN 6 TIMES MADE 5 TRIPS TO THE E.R. ROOM AND HAD SEX WITH A FROG.NOW WHAT?PEACE “ROCKER DAN”

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  61. mushrooman

    WELL WE GOT WHAT “SOME OF US ” WANTED A NUCLEAR NIGHTMARE.WHEN THE ATOM WAS FIRST SPLIT IT WAS TO BEANAFIT MANKIND: OR WAS IT,MOST OF SUPER ADVANCES IN THECHNOLOGY HAVE BEEN INVENTED FOR WAR,AN EVENT THAT DICTATES OUR WORLD.RADIO CUMUNICATION,RAILROADS,AIROPLANES,ROCKETS,EVEN COMPUTERS WERE DESIGNED AS A “WAR TOOL” AND THEN GIVEN A HUMANE DISTRACTION AS TO BENAFIT MANKIND AND THE HUMAN RACE,WHY IS EVERYTHING A RACE,A RACE TO EXPLORE SPACE,A RACE TO DEVELOP ROCKETS,A RACE TO BUILD A BETTER MISSLE,A RACE TO MAKE A STRONGER MORE “USER FREINDLY” COMPUTER A RACE TO MAKE A MORE SILENT STEALTH PLANE,A RACE TO GET AS FAST TO THE BE THE FIRST TO THE FINISH LINE.SIMPLY BECAUSE “WE” WANT TO BE THE FIRST TO CROSS THAT IMAGINENARY FINISH LINE,TO BECOME THE FIRST TO BUILD A FASTER EVERYTHING.DONT GET ME WRONG LIFE WAS VERY HARD BEFORE MANY OF THE AFORE MENTIONED ITEMS,HOWEVER ITS MANS INATE BEHAVIOR THAT MAKES EVERYTHING A “RACE” GET FASTER,GET HIGHER(BOTH ON LAND,IN THE AIR,AND IN THE MIND AND BODY.) INSHORT A “RACE” TO GET TO THE END.THEN WHAT? LETS TAKE THE ATOMIC BOMB,AN INVENTION TO GIVE US ATOMIC POWER,THE BEST,THE STRONGEST,THE FINAL ANSWER TO ALL OUR NEEDS BE IT FUEL,OR DESTRUCTION.WE(THE USA) WAS THE FIRST TO USE THIS AS A WEPON.IRONACLY TO WASTE THE ISLANDS OF HIROSMIA AND NAGASAKITO “RACE O BE THE “WINNER OF THE WAR”.NOW JAPANS MADE A MISTAKE OR DID THEY? A EARTHQUAKE DID START THIS BEGAINING OF THE END THERE,BUT THEY(JAPAN)PULLED US INTO WWII OR WERE WE LOOKING FOR A EXCUSE? WAS IT NOT ENOUGH TO ENTER THE WAR FOR WHAT ADOLPH HITLER WAS DOING TO NOT ONLY JEWS BUT POLES FRENCH,RUSSIANS AFICANS ECT.WHY DID WE WAIT UNTILL PEARL HARBOR TO “GET INVOLVED”?YOU MIGHT AS WELL ASK “WHY JOHN KENNEDY”.THE ANSWERS ARE LOST IN THE PAST,NOT TO BE FOUND IN THE FUTURE.WHY IS IT THAT WHEN THINGS GO WRONG WE LOOK TWOARDS THE BIBLE? WHY NOT BEFORE? I AM NOT A “BIBLE TOTTER” NOR AM I PREDIPOSSED TO PRAY EACH AND EVERY NIGHT,NOT FOR MY SELF,BUT FOR OTHERS FIRST,TAKE FOR EXSAPLE I PRAY FOR MY WIFE(WHO HATES MY GUTS) OR MY SON,WHO PROBALY HATES ME AS WELL.BUT PRAY I DO.SOMETIMES FOR MYSELF,TO BE OUT OF PAIN FROM MY CRIPPILING BACK PAIN,BY WAY OF GETTING THE MEDICNE I NEED,AND THE FUNDS TO PAY FOR IT.SOMETIMES FOR FOOD.I WONDER HOW MANY PEOPLE PRAY FOR ME? I DONT REALLY CARE AS LONG AS I PRAY FOR THEM.I RECALL CLEARLY THE 1960S.THERE WAS VIETNAM,TERRORISM,OTHER MAN MADE AND EARTH MADE DISASTERS YET IT DID SEEM SUCH SIMPLER A TIME,TILL I THINK BACK,AND BACK AND BACK AND FURTHER BACK.GODS NOT GOING TO VEGAS NOR IS THE ALLMIGHTY GOING TO PUT BREAD AND VALIUM ON MY TABLE.BUT IT SEEMS AS HIS TIME,WITH THE MIDDLE EAST IN FLAMES,JAPANS RECENT EARTHQUAKE AND NUCLEAR DISASTER NOTHING WILL BE LEARNED I FEAR.DOES THAT MEAN I SHOULD OR WE SHOULD STICK OUR HEADS IN THE SAND,OR TRY AND SHOW COMPASSION? “HOW WHERE AND WHY” HAVE REPLACED “WHO WHAT AND WHERE” BECUSE THAT NO LONGR MATTERS.I AM GOING THRU A DIVORCE BECAUSE.JUST BECUSE.NO REAL EXPLANATION WHY.NO REAL EXPLANATION WHOS AT FAULT,I WOULD LOVE TO SAY,”WELL ITS MY WIFES FAULT” BUT THAT WOULD BE A LIE.I AM SURE SHE WOULD AND PROBALY DOES SAY”ITS ALL HIS FAULT!” BUT THAT ALSO WOULD BE A LIE.ALONE I SHALL BE,BECUSE,JUST BECUSE.KIND OF LIKE WHATS HAPPENING IN THE WORLD,JUST BECUSE.SO BEFORE YOU BLAME SOMEONE ELSE TAKE A LOOK AT YOURSELF,THEN TAKE A LONG LOOK AT THE WORLD.ITS A FUCKING RACE,AND WE ALL COME IN LAST! PEACE “ROCKER DAN”,AT LEAST FOR TODAY.

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    “WITHA “STROKE OF LUCK” MANY THINGS IN THIS WORLD BOTHER ME,HOWEVER BESIDES MY WIFE(SOON TO BE FORMER WIFE)THE FOLLOWING SHIT REALY TICKS ME OFF! WHEN I GET SOMEONE ON THE PHONE,WHO IS IN A SEMMI POWER POSISTIAN WHO CLEARLY DOES NOT LIKE THIER JOB,OR SOMEONE IN PERSON,LIKE AT A PHARMACY WHO ACTS LIKE THIER THE DOCTOR AND THEY HOLD YOUR PERSCRIPTION BACK,OR JUST FUCK AROUND WITH YOU,THE SECOND POINT FIRST.I WENT TO A WELL KNOWN DRUGSTORE LAST MONTH AND THE “THE PARMASISTS “HELPER” TOLD ME THAT I ALLREADY PICKED UP MY VALIUM.SHE SAID THIS WITH A “I KNOW BETTER THAN YOU/MY COMPUTER TOLD ME YOUR LYEING” SORT OF WAY,SHE CAME VERY CLOSE TO ME WHOMPING HER WITH MY CANE,OH SO FUCKING CLOSE.IT WAS THEN A DIFFERENT GIRL STEPPED UP AND SAID,”THATS A DOUBLE BECUSE OUR SYSTEM JUST CRASHED”SO THE FIRST GIRL(WHO ALLMOST BECAME PULP) SAID “OH MY MISSTAKE,YOUR GOOD TO GO”YEAH I KNOW I AM RIGHT”,(I DID NOT SAY THIS)SO WHEN A LITTLE OLE LADY WALKED IN AND GOT THE SAME RESPONCE,OH MY SHE(OLE LADY SAID)AND SRORMED OUT,I LET HER GO/NOW USALY IN THE PAST I WOULD HAVE STOOD UP FOR THE OLE LADY,BUT NOW IN THIS WORLD OF CAREING FOR YOURSELF,I THOUGHT “WHY STAND UP FOR EVERYONE”ITS ENOUGH TO FIGHT FOR ME!THATS NOT ENTIRELY RIGHT,BUT TRUE.NEXT IS THE PHONE BITCHS.THE OPERATERS I GET USALY SEEM DISPLEASED WITH THIER JOBS.THEY COME ON ALL “I AM RIGHT A LITTLE MEATL BOX SAID SO” SO WHAT I AM SAYING IS THIS: DONT TAKE SHIT FROM ANYONE WHO IS GIVEING YOU A HARD TIME,THEY ARE GETTING PAID(A LOT) ASK FOR THIER SUPERVISER,NOTE THE TIME,NOTE THE EXCAT TIME,THE DATE,AND ANYTHING SAID,EVERY THING SAID IF YOU CAN REMEBER.CALL BACK ,TALK TO ANOTHER PERSON,AND REPORT THE FUCKER!LIFE IS FULL OF NO IT ALL ASSHOLES WHO ARE NOT ONLY ON A POWER TRIP,BUT HATE THE JOB THEY ARE FOURTNTE ENOUGH TO HAVE,SO FUCK THEM “KNOW IT ALLS”,IF THEY DISTURB YOU,EVEN A BIT,REPORT THEM TO THIER HIGHER UPS AND GET A PERSON WHO MAKES YOU HAPPY ON THE OTHER END OF THAT LINE!!!!AS ALLWAYS PEACE.RD PS A PRAYER GOES OUT TO “THE KING” YOU CAN REACH HIM AT PO5 1313.

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  63. mushrooman

    WELL: I FINALY OVER DID IT.I HAD A STROKE,NO NOT A STROKE OF LUCK,OR WS IT?TWAS NOT THE MEDICENE THAT GOT ME IT WAS LIFE,AND MY INABILITY TO HANDLE MY NUMERUS PROBLEMS.FIRST OFF ALL I HAVE BE GOING THRU A VERY LONG DIVORCE.(TWO YEARS)AND THE END IS IN SIGHT.I SPENT 27 YEARS WITH A GREAT GAL.WE WENT TRU WORKING WITH THE GRATEFUL DEAD,GEORGE HARRISON,YOKO ONO LENNON,MY FREIND RICHIE HAVENS,COUNTRY JOE MCDONOLD,THE SMOTHERS BROTHERS,CSN AND YOUNG,AND MANY OTHER BANDS.WE SAW THE BEST SHOWS AT LITTLE OR NO COSTS AND MET AND PARTYED WITH PAUL SIMION,THE ROLLING STONES,THE MOODY BLUES,THE CARS,THE KINKS,THE RAMONES,BRIAN WILSON,THE MONKEES,STEVIE”GUITAR” MILLER,HERMINS HERMITS,AND JERRY GARCIA WHO ALLMOST DIED FROM DRUGS (WE SENT HIM)BOBBY WEIR,AND A WHOLE LOT MORE I CANT REMEMEBER AT THE TIME OF THIS WRIGHTING.WE WERE A TEAM! AS OUR FREINDS PASSED AWAY WE KEPT ON GOING TILL I “LOST IT” ON FENTANYL.SO WE PARTED,ACTUALY THE POLICE ASKED ME TO LEAVE MY HOUSE ON VALATINES DAY 2009.THEY GAVE ME 15 MINUTES TO TAKE WHAT I NEEDED.I WANTED TO GO WITH THIS CUTE DECTECTIVE GINGER,BUT HER COMANDER WAS AFFRIAD “WE MIGHT KEEP ON GOING” SO AWAY I WENT,TO A NEARBY CLASSY HOTEL FOR AROUND 3 OR 4 NIGHTS TO DETOX,SINCE I DID NOT TAKE MY MEDS WITH.THEN MY FREIND “KELLY” NO NOT THAT KELLY,SENT ME UP NORTH TO REST,AND I STAYED.NOW I DIVIDE MY TIME BETWEEN HERE AND THERE.SO LIFE CAUGHT UP WITH ME LAST NIGHT AND BITCH SLAPPED ME BACK DOWN TO EARTH!WHAT IAM TRYING TO SAY HERE IS, HELL I DONT HAVE A CLUE!GOOD READING UH? MAY PEACE BE WITH YOU,I PLAN TO REST,DOSE BACK UP AND DO SOMETHING FANTASIC,WHEN LIFE GIVES YOU LEMMONS,SAY FUCK YOU!WHO THE HELL WANTS LEMMONS! PEACE,ROCKER DAN.

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    “I AM GOING TO SLEEP NOW” AFRAID,OF COURSE. I AM AFRIAD.AFRAID OF NOT WAKEING UP.lAST NIGHT I WENT TO SLEEP,ONLY TO AWOKE BY THE NUMBNESS OF MY ARMS AND HANDS,I DID HAVE A SMALL STROKE,A TIA AS THEY CALL IT.A SMALL SEMI DANEROUS CONDIDTON CAUSED BY STRESS.I AM ALONE NOW.AND I AM TIRED.GOING TO BED,AT THIS LATE HOUR,IN A PLACE WHERE I ALLWAYS USED TO BE “SAFE” “ARE ANY OF US “SAFE”.I HAVE BEEN TOLD TO “TAKE IT EASY’.SO I WILL PRAY,THAT I AM “SAFE”THERES SO MUCH LEFT UNDONE.AS I WRIGHT THIS I WONDER”IS IT SAFE?” WE HAVE IN AMERICA A SYSTEM WHICH WE COUNT ON BEING “SAFE” WE WILL SEE.’YOU SAY HELLO,AND I SAY GOOD BYE” BUT ARE ANY OF US REALY,REALY,REALY “SAFE?”RD

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    WELL NOW,IT IS SAINT PATRICKS DAY.THIS USED TO BE ONE OF IF NOT MY FAVORITE “HOLIDAY”.I USED TO DRINK A BIT.THIS DAY WAS A GREAT DAY IN CHICAGO.THE CHICAGO RIVER USED TO BE PAINTED GREEN,THE CITY OF CHICAGO WOULD HAVE A PARADE,BOTH DOWNTOWN,AND ON THE SOUTHSIDE WHERE MOST OF THE IRISH FIRST SETTLED.THEN A COUPLE OF YEARS BACK,THE SOUTH SIDE STOPPED HAVEING THIER PARADE,MOSTLY BECUSE OF THE CROWDS WERE PEEING ALONG THE LAWNS AND STREETS BECUSE OF THE HUMAN BODYS NEED TO VOID ITSELF OF ALL THAT GREEN BEER!(NICE HUH!)AND THEN CONCERNS OVER THE CHICAGO DOWNTOWN PARADE WOULD BRING TO A HALT THE BUSSINESS SELLING AND OF COURSE THE “MELTDOWN” OF OUR ECONEMY.SEEING THEESE FINE DISRCTIONS FALL BY THE WAYSIDE MAKES ME FEEL SAD.THE WHOLE IDEA OF AMERICA IS TO HAVE THE FREEDOM TO “HAVE A PARADE” NOW ALL THAT IS LOST AS WE ALL SCRAMBLE FOR MONEY,OR TO NOT GET A DAY OFF FROM LIFES BITTER REALITYS.SOME HOW MORE THAN A PARADE OR TWO HAS BEEN LOST.GET UP,GO TO WORK AND IF YOUR REAL LUCKY YOU CAN WATCH SOME SHITTY T.V.(OR CABLE)THATS RIGHT THEY TOOK AWAY BRODCAST SIGNALS! SO WE ARE FORCED TO WATCH WHAT THEY WANT US TO,WHEN THEY WANT.VIOLENCE,”BRAKING NEWS”,JERSY SHORE AND NANCY GRACE ARE FAR MORE IMPORTENT THAN BROADCAST T.V. OR PUBLIC NETWORKS,I FORGOT,WE ARE SUPPOSSED TO “TUNE IN” TO WHAT THEY WANT.BUT WHO ARE THEY? THEY ARE THE PEOPLE WHO DICTATE WHAT WE SHOULD BUY,WHAT WE SHOULD WEAR,WHEN WE SHOULD WEAR AND BUY EVERYTHING WE HAVE OR DO! CELL PHONES,THE INTERNET,CAMERAS GPS,ALL IN THE PALM OF YOUR HAND,SO YOU DONT HAVE TO SIT DOWN AND TYPE OR “SURF” THE WEB.FASTER,DONT FORGET THIS IS THE HUMAN RACE! AS I SAID BEFORE,ITS A RACE WE ALLREADY LOST.THANK YOU TORRI SPELLING.THANK YOU MIKE “THE SITUATION” THANK YOU KIM “BIG BUT” KARDASHIAN.THANKS FOR NOTHING.TUNE IN TURN ON AND BUY EVERYTHING ONLINE.FREEDOM DIED.AND NOBODY WAS WATCHING.RD

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  66. mushrooman

    YEAH,YEAH,YEAH,I FIND IT HARD TO NOT COMMENT ON TODAYS CELEBS.I WOULD TRADE A MILLION “WHO EVERS” FOR ONE KIETH RICARDS.TODAYS CELBS ARE MOSTLY “WHOAS” OR INBREAD SHAVED HEAD TATTOED MORONS,NOW I HAVE NOTHING AGAINST TATTOES,ITS YOUR CHOICE,KIND OF LIKE ME NOT CUTTING MY HAIR FOR THE LAST FOUR YEARS,I HAD A LOT LONGER HAIR IN HIGH SCHOOL,DOWN MY BACK WHEN CURLEY,NOW ITS “MICK JAGGER” CIRCA 1971 LOOK.LONG,CLEAN AND SEMMI STRIGHT,WITH A WAVE,DAMN I LOOK GOOD FOR 53!BUT NOWDAYS IT DOES NOT TAKE MUCH TO BE IN THE SPOTLIGHT.WHAT I DONT GET IS THIS WHITE GIRL,BIG BUT,KARDASHIAN LOOK.OR THE “I AM SO SKINNY MY BOOBS WAY ME DOWN LOOK” OR FOR YOU GUYS OUT THERE THE SKIN HEAD “CANT GROW A BEARD” INBREAD LOOK.WHEN THE FUTURE HUMAN RACE LOOKS BACK(IF THERE IS A FUTURE RACE)IT WILL BE A JESUS,LOOK AT THIS “STYLE” LOOK.ALL MY IDOLS ARE AT LEAST DEAD,OR LOOK DEAD.REALY SOMETHING TO BE PROUD OF HUH?MY IDOLS DID SOMETHING GREAT TO BE AN IDOL,SUCH AS KILLER ALBUMS OR SONGS,MOVIES,BOOKS,OR PROTESTS THAT MADE A DIFFERENCE FOR FREEDOM.NOT FUCK A POOCH AND UPLOAD IT TO YOU TUBE(NOT MY TUBE)TODAYS “STARS” THINK ITS COOL TO BE ARESSTED,OR HAVE A SEX TAPE,OR JUST WRIGHT AND PERFORM REAL SHITTY MUSIC.MY PROOF IS WHEN YOU SEE A KID WITH A PINK FLOYD,OR GRATEFUL DEAD T SHIRT,AND THEESE KIDS KNOW THE MUSIC.WHEN MUSIC WAS MUSIC,YEAH I AM STARTING TO SOUND OLD,MAYBE BECAUSE I AM OLD.BUT AT LEAST I HAVE MY MEMORIES THAT ARE SHARED WITH SOME OF TODAYS COOL KIDS!THAT KEEPS ME “YOUNG AT HEART!”WELL TIME FOR MY ENSURES AND MEDICENE.MY CANE AND WARM COAT AND MY SHIRT AND PANTS(ALL BLACK)YEAH I AM COOL,BUT AT LEAST I DONT NEED PEOPLE TO TELL ME THAT I FUCKING KNOW!PEACE (FOR NOW) RD

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  67. mushrooman

    SET THE RECORD STRAIGHT: I DO LOVE MY WIFE,ALLWAYS WILL,I GUESS WE JUST GREW APPART.I CHOOSE TO STAY IN MY MIND CIRCA 1975.SAME PRINCEAPALS,SAME”MIND SET”(EXCEPT I GAVE UP REFFERS)SAME BELEAFS,SAME STYLE.SAME MORAL FABRIC AND THE SAME IMPORTENCE PLACED ON THE VALUES I HOLD SO DEAR.MY WIFES A GREAT WOMAN,A GREAT PERSON,I DID SOME BAD THINGS,NO NOT CHEATING,NO NOT SMACKIN HER,JUST GOT A LITTLE TO HIGH.NOW SOME SAY.WELL THATS NOT SO BAD,BUT YOU WERNT THERE!SO LEAVE “US”ALONE,OR THE “BOOGYMAN” WILL “GET” YOU!SEE,THE SAME AS IT EVER WAS!RD POST SCRIPT,MY RECENT STROKE LEFT ME PARTLY PARALISED ON MY LEFT SIDE,NOTHING FUNNY HERE.I PLAY GUITAR,NOW MY CHORD/LEAD SIDE WILL TAKE SOME EFFORT TO GET BACK,OR NOT, SO I AM ANOUCEING HERE AND NOW:NO LONGER WILL I BE ABLE TO PERFORM.A SAD DAY FOR ME,BUT I AM ALIVE AND GOT A HUGE WARNIG SHOT ACCROSS MY BOW.SO THE MUSIC FADED A BIT,SO IF YOU PLAY,REMEMBER TO PLAY A GOOD ONE FOR ME,MAKE THE WORLD HERE THE GOOD MUSIC THAT WE AND I ADORE.PEACE,DAN

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  68. Dan L. Donian

    forever autumn:I have been thinking(always a dangerous thing with me)I have just received my final test results.Yes,yeah,and yeah,yeah,yeah,i have had a stroke.I knew this would happen,as since my getting kicked out of my old home 25 months ago i was on a “death trip.”I over did everything,and until i could get to my lovely doctor(who really did care)and be put on as much medicine as i want,to keep me out of pain,and get high,without the “Reefers” that were holding me back,its pretty cool to use all my mind that one can assess.great news i now have spell correct thanks to my friends and readers who told me how to down load a program.There are allot of good friends i found out after my ride to the hospital,and a police ride home.i have to really take it easy,and respect life! That,as i have had so many close calls,but my wife,surely saved me from deaths grasp many a time!Now i must do that on my own,with a little help from my friends.Peace Dan

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  69. Dan L. Donian

    CLOSE TO THE END THAN THE BEGINNING:I WENT DOWN TO THE RESTERANT/PUB TO GIVE KELLY A SUB COPY OF THE PEACE TAPES FOR A COUPLE OF DVDS,,THE PLACE WAS FULL.MOSTLY MY FRIENDS WHOM I HAVE MET UP HERE.ONE AFTER ANOTHER CAME OVER AS I SLOWLY DRANK A GREEN CREAM SODA.EVERYONE ONE WAS GAY,NO NOT HOMOS,THE HAPPY GAY.NOT THAT HOMOS CANT BE HAPPY,OH HELL YOU SHOULD KNOW WHAT I MEAN,SOME QUIETLY OB-SEVERING ME,MY HAIR WAS IN PLACE,I WAS DRESSED UP.(FORGOT TO WEAR GREEN)AND SOME JUST CAME OVER TO THE FURTHEST I COULD GET FROM THE BAR.I JUST WANTED TO GIVE KELLY THE PEACE TAPES,AND LEAVE.RYAN THE MANAGER CAME OVER WITH RODRIGO AND SAID”DAN YOU LOOK TIRED ARE YOU FELLING OK?”ACTUALLY NO I REPLIED,THEY WERE CALLED AWAY BY ONE OF THE GIRLS WHO MUST HAVE INFORMED THEM OF MY SILENT TRIP TO THE ER.EVERYONE WANTED TO GET ME ANOTHER SODA OR WATER OR SOMETHING TO EAT.I HAVE NO HUNGER TODAY,AND MY PAIN EVEN AS I HAVE TAKEN AROUND 10 MGs OF OXYCONTIN,AND 40 MGs OF VALIUM.I POLITELY EXCUSED MYSELF,BOTH IN PAIN,AND RELY FUCKING AFRAID OF WHAT COULD FOLLOW.I HAD AN ESCORT TO MY CELL.AND TOOK MORE MEDICINE.IS WAS THEN I REALIZED SOMETHING,WHEN SOMEONE LIKE ME GETS DOWN FROM A STROKE IT REMINDS PEOPLE OF THEIR FATHERS BROTHERS UNCLES OR FRIENDS THAT HAVE PERISHED WAY TO YOUNG.JUST KNOWING THAT SOME PEOPLE CARE WAS ENOUGH FOR ME TODAY.OF COURSE I SHOULD BE IN A HOSPITAL,BUT NO SMOKING, MORPHINE INSTEAD OF MY OWN MEDS AND THE CONSTANT BARRAGE OF NOISE AND SIRENS WHOULD DO MORE TO INCREASE MY STRESS THAN RELAXING AT HOME,ALSO STAFF INFECTIONS,ECT.HOSPITALS HAVE GONE DOWN HILL AS MUCH AS ANYTHING OR EVERYTHING NOW DAYS.SO A I TYPE THIS NOT KNOWING IF THIS WILL BE MY FINAL WORDS I DO FIND COMFORT IN MY SITUATION.I BROUGHT THIS ON MYSELF,AND LET CERTAIN PEOPLE STRESS ME OUT.THEY9THE PEOPLE AT HE BAR WILL SEND UP A TURKEY SANDWICH,AND I AM GOING TO LYE DOWN AND WITH A BIT OF LUCK GET OUT OF PAIN,BUT MY MIND DOES WANDER NOW,WISH I COULD “LIGHT ONE UP”BUT THAT WOULD BE A BIG MISTAKE AND A MAJOR SET BACK.GOODNIGHT ALL AND I AM PRETTY SURE I WILL BE TYPING AWAY MAHAYANA,PEACE.RD.

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  70. mushrooman

    OH MAN,I JUST WATCHED JACK WHITE PERFORM IN A PARKING LOT IN L.A. WHICH I FOUND ON THAT PEREZ HILTONS SITE,YOU KNOW THAT OVER THE TOP HOMO WEIRDO,HEY I AM NOT A HOMOPHOBIC,BUT THIS GUY STRIKES ME AS WAY TO MUCH,ANYWAY THIS JACK WHITE(WHO THE ROLLING STONES TRASHED)PERFORMRD WITH THE ROLLING STONES ON THAT LAST LIVE L.P. PRODUCED BY MARTIAN SCORSASE(TOTALY WRONG SPELLING)AND THE STONES WERE FORCED TO BY THIER RECORDING COMPANY(GOT TO DO IT EVEN IF YOUR GOD HIMSELF)BOY THIS GUY REALY SUCKED! HE DID “NOT FADE AWAY” THE BUDDY HOLLY CLASSIC COVERED BY EVERYONE INCLUDEING THE ROLLING STONES IN 1964,AND THE GRATEFUL DEAD IN 1970 AS WELL AS ME PERSONALY STARTING IN 1971 TILL 3/15/11 WHEN MY PUBLIC PLAYING CAME TO A HALT BECUSE I DID NOT TAKE TO GOOD A CARE OF MYSELF.SOOOO THIS JACK WHITE GUY SOUNDS WORSE THAN A STROKE VICTIM.MAN DID HE FUCKING SUCK! MAN OH MAN,NO WONDER THE STONES MADE FUN OF HIM ON THE L.P. AND ON VH1 THE OTHER DAY WHEN THE CABLE GIANT MESSED UP AND PLAYED THE MOVIE WITHOUT RETAINING THE CORRECT LISENEING RIGHTS. OH BY THE WAY AM I THE ONLY ONE THAT CAC SMELL “SNOOKIES” PUSSY FROM MY FLATSCREEN? TO BAD THE TSUNAMI DID NOT TAKE OUT THE JERSY SHORE! WELL I TOOK A HALF A POUND OF OXY SO I WILL BE UP FOR A WHILE.MY WEEKEND COMPANY CANCELLED,THANK GOD FOR REAL FREINDS WHO KNEW THAT THEY WOULD TOTALY CAUSE ME TO MUCH STRESS.I DO HOPE I CAN TAKE A WALK IF ITS NICE TOMOROW AND GET OUT FOR SOME EXERSISE.HAVE A GOOD NIGHT.PEACE.RD

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  71. Dan L. Donian

    I woke up to the sound of a major,out of control party at the resort where i am staying.Screaming,yelling and primal sounds permeate the cool clear night air.Furniture gos out or off the porch down a few rooms from me.A man jumps three floors down to the ground,a “crunching” snapping, pretzel like sound hits my eardrums.Running to the woods to a park for cover these morons came upon a river that divides the park from escape and freedom.I crouch down(an old habit) and wait and watch,1,2,3,5,7 or more people make their way down,some by stirs,some out of “nowhere” they hit the ground running in all directions.1.2.5 squad cars come racing in sreaching to a halt as their flood light searching in all directions.Then of course a spotlight glares upon me,dressed in my surgeons “jam mies” A “hey you stand up.hands in the air one semi over weight,tough looking Police officer yells at my general direction.i stand up and the spotlight illuminates me.i have a flashlight in one hand,a bottle of pills in my other and a cigarette dangling from my mouth.(pills were to take so i did not stay up all night)So up i stand,the Sheriffs who are “hanging around for Saint paddy’s day over flow,and to help with the city cops arrive. a “hey Dan,whats up” greets my smile-ling face.I said “i am!”as the scene takes on a full moon atmosphere.”Whats going on” i shrug being totally illuminated by several “floods”. apparently several minors,and a few majors have had a bash that ended up in a smash and destroyer situation.As several more units start to comb the woods with flashlights,the police turn their attention to the suspects on the ground. elven arrests lead to around twenty or so total.The fact that the police know me from a few o my run ins actually comforts me,as the police make the arrests,both in the woods and around on the streets,cuffing,screaming “let me see your hands,my house phone rings,”is everything O.K. up there” a “yes of course”comes from my lips!As they prepare to take their “stash of beer drinkers,heck raisers away,a shout comes from below,”i heard you stopped smoking,”a reference aimed at my discontinue Marijuana.Oh yeah,had to,doctors orders” comes from me .deep down where my swearing lyes.Police just smile and wave,they could care less,just another reminder of my new state of confusion.It took a while and some mindless t.v. and a couple of sprites,some major medicine and i was off to dreamland,or should i say”nightmare land”.RD

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  72. Dan L. Donian

    “In the shuffling madness of a locomotive breath,no i couldn’t slow down”,so God intervened.Strange looks i am used to and a few “i knew its”,outside of that people are nice,nice morons,but nice being the key word,most new people thing i am slurring from drugs anyway.a trade off,i get to live,and i now enjoy everything.much more thankful than before,i was getting there,but i have arrived at my detonation,no not my final one,but close enough to Appreciate life.really appreciated life,food and well the little things like ants(kidding)walks threw the park,instead of taking a million pictures i study my subjects and then”click!”that can also pertain to life as my dear brother mike who i miss so fucking much said “when you see people real happy,your only seeing a snapshot of their life!” That really means more than before.And before it meant allot.Miss Mike. always will,miss my wife and Son as well,never to return.RD

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  73. Dan L. Donian

    divorce: This the part where i came in,seen this already.So much has changed 2 years and i still am married on paper,but NOT in my mind,”thought i saw angels but i could have been wrong” “To cry you a song”Jethro Tull Chrysalis records copyright 1972.Why do nice people hurt others? Well the weekends here,so time to dress up and go to a rock n roll show!Thank God there is one close…………I am a romantic fool,calling all friends with one text,and vola! the outside world wants to “play”no more endless nightmare nights,no girls hassling me,no need, to much trouble.I have had enough girl friends.But i will always love my former wife,the way she used to be,thats what i remember,perhaps that IS my consolation.See ya in the funny papers. “Rocker Dan”

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  74. mushrooman

    FACE IT WORLD I AM SO TOTALY CONFUSED.DIVORCE RELLY DOES OR WELL ITS NOT THE ANSWER.GOD NIGHT AND MAY GODBLESS,HOPE TO BE HERE OR THERE IN THE MORN,PEACE, DAN

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  75. Dan L. Donian

    “Hacker alert” now,now,let play nice! Apparently someone yes i know who you are has tried to “hack in again to my computer.This one came from “The Peace Tapes message board”.Except i shut that down quite a while ago.And it would not come here.I have five fire walls ,so good luck(not!)the funds and long court case us about over,but i will get you.and not in the “legal sense” you have been sworn in to uphold the law,you “FUCKED UP” by trying to mess with me.I will take care of you all myself.Nowhere to run,and nowhere to hide.I have taken an oath as well and as a Trustee it is my job to drag your silly ass to the A. R.D.C.,after the Supreme Court deals with you then comes hell to your door step,and IN! See you in the gutter.Dead as a doornail you fuck.

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  76. Dan L. Donian

    NOW COMES THE TIME: Now comes the time to inspect all the worlds food.Not only Japan is at risk,the products from Japan are used in just about everything we eat and drink.Remember “Mad Cow”? how about the tainted strawberry’s,the potato recall,the spinach right here,the “Jimmy Johns” meat and lettuce.Yes nuclear power and its by products are “bringing us all down”.”Its whats reported that we hear,not all the problems”.How about the wheat,the corn,the well just about everything being containing radiation. Which is everything under the sky,the USDA is another joke /part of our Government,yes they “help” when they get caught!But only then.Why scare the masses?As long as we continue to rake in the “rewards” from nuclear power,we will be trading lights and dishwashers for poisoned food.now remaking “Soy lent Green”, would be a scary movie,its not the ETs we should fear,but ourselves!Dan and THE PEACE TAPES

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  77. Dan L. Donian

    O.K.ONE LAST TIME: DIVORCE IS A HURTFUL,STUPID,MINDLESS,FUCKED UP MESS!DIVORCE LAWYERS ARE THE BOTTOM OF THE BARREL,PEOPLE WHO GET DIVORCED ARE LOSERS, INCLUDING ME.YEAH I AM A MAJOR LOSER. KNOW ONE BENEFITS BY IT,THERE ARE NO WINNERS,ONLY LOSERS.YOU LOOSE YOUR HOUSE,THE RESPECT OF YOUR CHILDREN,YOUR FRIENDS ALL TURN OUT TO SEE YOU GO DOWN IN FLAMES,AND ALL THAT WHILE YOUR FRIENDS LAUGH AT YOU(BEHIND YOUR BACK)IF I EVER FIND OUT WHO HELPED PERPETUATE MY DIVORCE,ILL KILL YOU,SWEAR TO GOD ILL KILL YOU AND YOUR FAMILY’S.PEACE DAN

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  78. Dan L. Donian

    THE FINAL CUT: OK,I GOT YELLED AT,SO “I DANIEL LEE DONIAN ARE NOT GOING TO KILL ANYONE EVER”!!!!BUT I DO INTEND TO FUCK UP SOME PEOPLE WHO “HURT MY WIFE AND MYSELF”,OF THIS I PROMISE! MY WIFE IS A VERY PRETTY GIRL,SHE IS NICE AND CARING.WE WERE A GREAT TEAM. WE HAD SOME PROBLEMS WHICH LED TO MY OVERINDULGENCE IN FENTANYL.THIS WAS PRESCRIBED BY A DOCTOR,(A MORON DOCTOR)WHO DID NOT WANT ANYTHING BUT TO HURT MY WIFE AND MYSELF.I KNOW I DID SOME THINGS WRONG AS DID MY WIFE,YEAH I WAS “THE BAD GUY” SOCIETY NEEDS BAD GUYS TO POINT THE FINGER AT TO LOOK AND FEEL BETTER THEMSELVES”(TONY MONTANA)SO DONT FUCK WITH ME.DONT FUCK WITH MY WIFE,AND SHE(MY WIFE) TELLS ME WHO DOES.SO BETTER WATCH OUT,BETTER NOT CRY,BETTER NOT POUT,IM TELLING YOU WHY.I AM COMING TO TOWN……………SANTI CLAUS,LOVE YOU CALEB.YOUR SLIGHTLY DISTURBED FATHER,YOU HERE THAT JAKE,YOU FUCKING UGLY NERD!!!!!PEACE,ME

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  79. Dan L. Donian

    I SHOULD CALL A AMBULANCE,I AM STARTING TO “LIKE” THE JERSEY SHORE REALITY PROGRAM!(OH I SHOULD JUMP OFF THE BALCONY). IT’S JUST STUPID KIDS HAVING “FUN” I GET IT NOW WE ARE SUPPOSED TO DISLIKE THEM(THE CAST)ALL THOSE PEOPLE WHO WANT TO LOOK/DRESS LIKE THEM ARE STILL SICK ASSHOLES,BUT I LIKE SEEING HOW DISGUSTING “SNOOKIE” IS.i LIKE SEEING THE MASSIVE AMOUNT OF SEXUAL PARTNERS THEY HAVE,AND I WILL DEFIANTLY WANT TO SEE THEM GROW UP(IF POSSIBLE)AND HOST “THE GONG SHOW” OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT.HEY I WAS A REBAL MYSELF,(YA THINK?)AND I DID DO STUPID THINGS,STILL DO IN FACT!ITS A DISTRACTION FROM THE SERIUSNESS OF TODAYS WORLD,COME ON WAR ON LIBYA? OBAMA IS SO CONTROLLED BY EVERYONE,EVEN HIS WIFE.I JUT HAVE TO UNDERSTAND THESE MORONS ARE REAL FUCKING RICH FROM THEIR OUT OF CONTROL COMICAL LIVES! IF THEY HAD SENSE,WHICH THEY PROBABLY DO THEY WILL PUT AWAY SOME CASH FOR WHEN THEY NEED TREATMENT FOR AIDS,OR A FEW DEEP DISH PIZZAS!SO NOW I GET IT!SMART KIDS ACTING DUMB,I CAN TOTALLY RELATE.BUT WOW THE PEOPLE WHO DO TAKE THEM SERIOUSLY,AND WANT TO BE PUMPED UP ON STEROIDS,OR BY “RUBBERS BY THE CRATE”, WELL THOSE ARE THE ONES THAT WILL NEED ABOUT A MILLION HOURS OF THERAPY.NOW I GET IT!THEY ARE THE VILLAINS IR THE HEROES.BUT THAT “SNOOKIE” WHAT A SKANK! SO WHAT I AM-SAYING IS LAUGH AT THEM,SMILE WITH THEM OR LAUGH AT THEM.ITS HARMLESS, UNLESS YOU TRY AND BE LIKE THEM,BETTER THAN WATCH THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA BITE OFF WAY MORE THAN WE CAN CHEW.PEACE!!!! RD

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  80. Dan L. Donian

    THE PLACE WHERE I AM STAYING HAS “LOST CONTROL”.THIS PLACE USED TO BE A NICE FAMILY PLACE WHERE MY WIFE AND MYSELF,THEN OUR SON HAD SOME GREAT TIMES! NOW THIS RESORT HAS TURNED INTO A SINGLED”FRAT HOUSE”.THE MANAGEMENT REFUSE TO CALL THE POLICE (IF THEY CAN)AND TRY AND HANDLE OUT OF CONTROL,NO TOTALLY OUT OF CONTROL WHITE TRASH,MIXING WITH STREET PEOPLE,MIXING WITH AN OCCASIONAL FAMILY.I WOULD BE AFRAID TO WALK MY SON DOWN THE HALLS NOW(WELL NOT) NOW BECAUSE MY SONS A BIG,STRONG ASS KICKER!!!!THIS PLACE HAS GONE TOTALLY DOWN HILL SINCE I MOVED IN,NO NOT BECAUSE OF ME,EVEN AS I WELL.IT JUST HAS!I AM OUT OF HERE TONIGHT AS I MIGHT JUST TAKE OUT TWO YEARS PLUS ON EVERYONE. PEACE? RD

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  81. Dan L. Donian

    WELL THAT WAS FUN! DAVE TOOK ME TO HIS FAMILY’S CLUB AND WE SAW XENO AND JOSEPH.XENO WAS THE FOUNDING MEMBER OF “CHEAP TRICK” AND JOE IS WITH THE MILWAUKEE PHILHARMONIC ORCHESTRA.THE PLACE WAS SPARKLED WITH PEOPLE I HAVE MET WITH THE GRATEFUL DEAD AND OTHER VENUES FROM “THE GOOD OLE DAYS!”I WANT TO SAY THANK YOU TO DAVE,HIS MOTHER AND BROTHER AND SISTER AND THEIR HUSBANDS AND WIFES! I SURE MISS MY WIFE.AS I SIT HERE BACK AT HOME(MY STROKE MADE US CUT THE NIGHT A LITTLE SHORT)BUT HEY IT WAS GOOD TO SE THE OLD SAUGANASH PEOPLE I WENT TO GRADE SCHOOL WITH!A MAJOR GIANT INDIAN NAME “MANNY” AS WELL WAS GREAT TO SEE AS WELL AS ALL THE PEOPLE WHO WORK AT THE CLUB,AND THE ROADIES WHOM MANY I HAVE MET BEFORE.THE GROUP PLAYED EVERYTHING AND THE MOODY BLUES “NIGHTS IN WHITE SATIN MADE ME A LITTLE SAD,NO A LOT SAD.BUT HEY ITS ONLY ROCK N ROLL.A FEW SONGS WERE MY FAVORITES,OF COURSE SOME CHEAP TRICK SONGS,BUT MORE STONES AND BEATLES THAN ANYTHING ELSE,A NOT FADE AWAY WAS DONE AS WELL AS A MOTHERS LITTLE HELPER!I TOOK SOME FANTASTIC PICTURES WITHE CAMERA THAT THE PHIBINS GAVE ME,AND MOST DEFIANTLY HAD A GREAT TIME.PEOPLE HAD HEARD OF MY STROKE AND MADE ME FEEL RIGHT AT HOME.BACKSTAGE WAS FILLED WITH SMOKE AND QUITE THE TOUGH CROWD,BUT NO FIGHTS OR ANYTHING CLOSE,I RATHER ENJOYED IGNORING THE YOUNG GIRLS,PROUDLY DISPLAYING MY WEDDING RING,I WILL NEVER TAKE IT OFF.SO TIME TO UNWIND AND TAKE SOME MAJOR MEDICINE AS I WAS ON MY BELLY AND TWISTED EVERY WAY FROM SUNDAY!SURE FEEL LONELY,AND MISS MY WIFE.SOMETHING I MAY NEVER GET USED TO.BUT ALL IN ALL I AM SET TILL THE NEXT SHOOT!PEACE TO ALL AND TO ALL A GOOD NIGHT!!!!DANNY

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  82. mushrooman

    RAINING LIKE HELL: WELL, THE FIRST DAY OF SPRING 2011,AND OF COURSE THATS COOL.BUT ANOTHER WAR(WE ALLREADY HAVE TWO) RELLY SUCKS!IS THERE ANYBODY WE ARE NOT AT WAR WITH? BE CAREFUL KIDS,AND PARENTS,THEY PROMISE YOU SCHOOL,MONEY AND THREE”SQARES” A DAY(MEALS.) YEAH THATS A GOOD TRADE FOR GETTING YOUR HEAD BLOWN OFF!I SAY TAKE THE PRISONERS WHO ARE VIOLENT OFFENDERS(NOT POT SMOKERS!) AND A FEW BIG BUCK MORONS AND SEND THEM.HEY IF YOU REALY WANT TO “GO” AND FIGHT FOR YOUR(AND EVERY OTHER COUNTRY) GO!IT WONT BE LONG BEFORE THE UNITED STATES WILL BRING BACK “THE DRAFT”.THAT IS WE(USA) ARE RUNNING OUT OF A ALL VOLETEER ARMY,AIR FORCE MARINES AND NAVY.THEN THEY GIVE YOU A NUMBER AND HAVE A “DRAWING” TO DETERMINE WHO GOES FIRST.HEROS ARE HARD TO FIND,AND IF THAT COMES BACK,WELL ALL THE PROTESTS IN THE WORLD WILL BE SYSTAMATACTLY PUT DOWN.SO THINK REAL GOOD,AND AS MY WIFE SAYS BEFORE ANY IMPORTENT DESISION “SLEEP ON IT!”I DO SUPORT OUR TROOPS,DONT YOU FUCKING DARE TO SAY I DO NOT.BUT HELLO,WAR IS ALOT MORE “FUN NOW” GREAT COMMERICALS.GREAT BENAFITS IF YOU “GET BACK”TO USE THEM AND ARMS AND LEGS FOR FREE,EVEN AS YOU NOW HAVE TO PAY FOR YOUR GEAR.SO LETS ALL GIVE ME AN F, AND A U ,AND A C,AND A K,WHATS THAT SPELL:BULLSHIT! PEACE,DAN

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  83. Dan L. Donian

    THE RESORT WHERE I STAY WILL PAY DEARLY THIS TIME.AFTER I GOT BACK EARLY LAST NIGHT AT 10:45PM T TRIED TO GET SOME SLEEP.A GANG OF YOUNG ADULTS GOT BACK AT 2:00 OR 2:30 AND RAISED HELL FOR ABOUT TWO HOURS.WHERE THIS PLACE USED TO HAVE 3 TO 4 SECURITY GUARDS NOW THEY HAVE ONE.A NICE GIRL,BUT SHE CANT TAKE ON THIRTY OUT OF CONTROL ROOMS,THE REST OF THE ROOMS WERE FAMILY’S.MOST OF THE FAMILY’S WHO STAY HERE HAVE CUTE YOUNG CHILDREN,AND MOST OF THEM GET THEIR ROOM “COMPTED” THE NEXT DAY,NEVER TO RETURN,THE FUCKERS WHO RUN THIS PLACE ARE ON THEIR WAY OUT,AND THEY KNOW IT!SO WHY SHOULD THEY CARE?SOME FRIENDS MOM AND BOYFRIEND WANTED TO TAKE ME OUT TO DINNER AND THEN PLAY SOME GUITAR MAKING FOR A GREAT WEEKEND,BUT THE : CHILD LIKE GUYS AND SLUTTY GIRLS LAST NIGHT WORE ME (AND THE REST OF THE STAFF OUT)FROM NOW ON MY FAVORITE PHONE NUMBER IS GOING TO BE 911.DAMAGE TO THE ROOMS ,FIGHTS,PUBLIC INTOXICATION,AND DRUGS HAVE BENN SOME OF THE 23 ARESSETS THIS LAST 11 DAYS,AND I HAVE TAXES TO DO,FAR AWAY TOMORROW.AND MY ARMS GONE NUMB AGAIN,SO I HAVE TO TAKE MORE PILLS THAT I DONT EVEN WANT TO.I WILL TOTTALY GET THE MANAGEMENT,A FORM LETTER TO ALL THE “RENTERS” WILL BE A GREAT START(HAVE THE LIST!)FUCK OFF.DAN

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  84. Dan L. Donian

    GOOD MORNING:SPRING IS HERE,SO IS ANOTHER WAR TO GO WITH IT.WE SHALL WAIT AND SEE IF THE ARAB WORLD SUPPORTS OR OPPOSES THE “EFFORT” TO WAGE AR ON LIBYA,THEN WHY DID WE LET THE RULING GOVERNMENT STAY IN POWER THESE LAST 30 YEARS? POLITICS BABY,POLITICS!RD

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  85. Dan L. Donian

    Dreams,ill never see: Last nigh(this morning) i had another bunch off Dreams/nightmares: One of the prolific dreams/nightmares ever received by my mind were “with me” as i awoke.First off,its raining quite a bit(with hail) where i am.The dream went like this.I was driving again(in my dreams!) and i crashed into the past,i hit a building where the Mother of my Daughter and myself lived.We lived in a top floor apartment in a rich,up scale suburb of a major city.I went to the door sans the three flights of steps.in “my” dream we used to live on the ground level unless my car could leave the ground,which by the way has happened a few times,one of the reasons i gave up driving while on so many medicines anyway.So i went to the door and a new couple met me to discuss if i was alright as well as how we were to handle the accident.While taking a tour of the “new” place i met a girl who was visiting the couple whose apartment i”flew” into.This girl was extreamly beautiful!She(the new girl) was very familiar with my mind.She and i talked and was visiting a old friend of mine,who is also in the entertainment field,and also related to The Grateful Dead organization.The girl and i talked and i walked her to her transportation.She promised to return shortly.I kept on telling myself,your not divorce yet,and tiring to wake up from this increasingly disturbing dream.When she (the “new girl”)did return i gave her a hug and tried to kiss her on her cheek,she was :floating around one to two feet off the ground,it was then she kissed me on my cheek.And then informed me that she was my wife,and that some “aliens” had restored her youth.(way to much LSD in the 70s)I said to her “your beautiful,but not a s pretty as my wife,soon to be former wife,and i really like her much more,so very much more!OK dreams are freaky,but mine like everything i do is way beyond”normal” even in my dreams!Sumery:I still Love my wife so much that my love penetrates even my most bizarre dreams,where people are supposed to be “free”.I then realized that if i ever “slipped on my medication,i might,and probably would be punished by God,or my own mind,banished to a land of endless dreams like this one,end to end,without waking up.So 2 things are for sure.Actauly 3 things,i will never “kill” myself,i will never stop my medication(pain off the scale today) and i will never love again after my divorce.(and 4 i should not be even entertaining the reality of divorce),not my idea.So i hope this kind of dream does not happen to my wife as she is the one who filed first for a divorce.Peace as always.Dan

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  86. Dan L. Donian

    funny things,strange times:A friend whose on his way here for me to type him a legal letter(how i make ends kind of meet)just “mummbeld”i wonder how many cigarettes did i bring along? And at that EXACT moment, Jethro Tull came on “To cry you a song” and Ian Anderson blared out”wondering how many cigarettes did i bring along?” from Benefit,Chyraliss records copyright 1969.Strange how my life has always been,but just noticed the music from that magical time the extremely early seventies has been the exact story of my present day life in every way.Sometimes or most of the time that i Do speak with my wife,she has on the exact same song,most of the time on “shuffle” surly the signs that “our divorce” is NOT supposed to be!Repeat NOT supposed to be!!!!Cant she she(and hear) the signs? RD

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  87. Dan L. Donian

    LIVING IN THE PAST:THE LAST TWENTY FOR HOURS WERE BY FAR THE STRANGEST I HAVE EVER BEEN THROUGH.TWO OF MY CLOSE FRIENDS CAME UP TO “VISIT” ME,AND WE RAN INTO A THIRD GENTLEMAN WHO I HAVE NOT SEEN IN 24 YEARS OR MORE.ALL OF US ARE COMPLETELY STRAIGHT NOW.NO ANYTHING EXCEPT FOR ME AND MY MEDICINE.HOW STRANGE AS WE ALL WERE VERY DIFFERENT UP TILL THIS VISIT. COFFEE WAS THE MAIN VICE,AND CIGARETTES.WHAT WE DID IS CLASSIFIED.IT WAS FUN AS WE LAUGHED AND CRIED.NO SLEEP WAS THE MAIN COURSE AND AND HARD WORK WAS THE DESERT.ALL OF OUR MEMORIES WERE SHARP AS A SWORD.IT MAY NEVER HAPPEN AGAIN,JUST LIKE THIS,ALL OF ALL FOUR OF US HAVE KNOWN EACH OTHER FOR 49 YEARS. SO STRANGE,BUT FROM NOW ON EVERYTHING BUT REVIEWS AND POEMS AND STORIES FROM OTHERS WILL BE “MY POSTS” TILL I COME UP WITH SOME ANSWERS.TAKE CARE AND AS ALWAYS ,PEACE…………………….DAN

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  88. Dan L. Donian

    “IM SO TIRED I HAVEN’T SLEPT A WINK,IM SO TRIED MY MIND IS ON THE BLINK,I WONDER SHOULD I GET UP AND FIX MY SELF A “DRINK” NO.NO.NO.IM SO TIRED I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO,IM SO TIRED MY MIND IS SET ON YOU,I WONDER SHOULD I CALL YOU,BUT I KNOW WHAT YOU WOULD DO: YOU’D SAY IM PUTTING YOU ON BUT ITS NO JOKE ITS DOING ME HARM,YOU KNOW ITS THREE YEARS IM GOING INSANE ID GIVE YOU EVERY THING IVE GOT FOR A LITTLE PIECE OF MIND”! IM SO TIRED.LENNON MCCATNEY,COPYRIGHT APPLE MUSIC 1969. BADGES, BADGES? WE DONT NED NO STICK EN BADGES!ME!!!!

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  89. Dan L. Donian

    THE TRUTH,THE TRUTH,YOU CANT HANDLE THE TRUTH! HE SAT THERE PATIENTLY,HIS EYES DARTING,SCANNING ME .FIRST SIDEWAYS,THEN UP AND DOWN TILL HIS BLUE,GREEN EYES FIXED ON ME WITH A HARD YET GENTLE STARE.HOW MUCH MORE OF ME OR ANYONE TAKE I THOUGHT! POLITELY HE ASKS”WHATS BOTHERING YOU THE MOST TODAY DAN”,I PAUSED, NOT KNOWING BUT TAKING A CHANCE ANYWAY.I TRIED TO SUMMON UP THE ANSWER TO HIS FORBIDDEN LIKE QUESTION, AFRAID,SCARED NO TERRIFIED A SHALLOW VOICE CREPT UP FROM SO VERY DEEP INSIDE OF MY MIDSECTION,’SHE,SHE WELL DOC,SHE SAID”WELL SHE SAID IN SO MANY WORDS,AS I CRIED OUT MY SENTIENCE THE WHOLE HOSPITAL FELL SILENT AS IF TO HEAR ME OVER THE SIRENS AND OLD PEOPLE MAKING THE RASPY SHUFFLING CLOTH ON CLOTH SOUNDS DISAPPEARED.A KIND OF TUNNEL VISION OUTLINE OF HE TRANSFIXED ME WITH ABSOLUTE CLARITY.SHE SAID,ALL I REMEMBERER IS HIS GRASP OF THE START OF HIS SENTIENCE.”WELL,I MEAN,OH GOD MAN I AM SO ,SO SORRY”. “I JUST AH WILL YOU BE ALRIGHT”?”THANK YOU DOC! I SUPPOSE AHH WILL BE”.NOT KNOWING JUST WHAT I HAD JUST RELINQUISHED TO THE KIND OLD BROTHER IN ARMS.ALL I CAN RECALL IS THE STARE,THAT KIND WONDERFUL STARE THAT SEEMED TO SUM IN ALL UP IN ONE INSIGHTFUL BEYOND COMPREHENSION SORT OF LOOK.IT HAUNTS ME.IT JUST HANGS THERE AS IF TO SAY I KNOW YOU KNOW THAT YOUR LIFE IS ALMOST OVER,THE PAIN OF YOUR PHYSICAL BEING IS NO COMPARISON TO WHAT YOU JUST LET ME KNOW DAR BROTHER.,MY HAND STILL COVERING MY THE PLACE WHERE MY HEART USED TO DWELL.DAN

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  90. Dan L. Donian

    FROM THE BOOK,”ORDERS OF PROTECTION” “THE REEL STORY!”AS I AWAKE I COME TO REALIZE TODAYS NOT A “PLAY DAY” NOR IS IT A TIME TO RELAX,TODAYS LIKE MOST PRODUCTIVE DAYS,A “WORK DAY”SOME PEOPLE PREPARE FOR A “WORK DAY” SAME AS ME: YOU GET OUT OF BED,COMB YOUR HAIR,MAKE THE COFFEE ON ‘ONE TOUCH’ AND DRINK,HAVE A SMOKE (TOBACCO KIDS!”) AND FOR SOME,MEDICINE YES,YES, PRESCRIBED FOR ME A KIND OF SUIT OF INVIABILITY REGIME AGINSIST PAIN.AS I PREPARE FOR WAR,BATTLE,WITH EXTREME PRECIOUSNESS,TAKE MORE GROUND,NEVER UP THE SHIP STUFF I SURVEY MY MUNITIONS CAREFULLY: PENS,SHARPIES,PAPER CIGARETTES, WATER BOTTLED WATER THAT IS, AND BATTLE MUSIC SEEPING SOFTLY THEN GROWING EVER LOUDER,THE SONGS MORE OR THAT IS INCREASINGLY MORE SEVERE IN NATURE.AS I GLANCE AT THE TIME ALL RINGERS ON,T,V.OFF I AM JUST ABOUT READY.MAYBE A FAST PRAYER,OH NOT FOR MY ENEMY’S,WHO THE HELL PRAYS FOR THEIR ENEMY’S HELL I NEED GOD ON MY SIDE.LET THE OTHER BASTARDS PRAY FOR ME.THAT WAY GOD WONT GET CONFUSED,WITH BILLIONS OF PEOPLE HOW BIG IS GODS HARD DRIVE ANYWAY?I ALERT MY SELF,BOTTLES OF PAIN KILLERS AND TRANKS AT THE READY IN CASE OF A LONG,DRAWN OUT ONE. VISSOUS STRIKE!I NEAR THE HOUR WHEN THE ENEMY’S”LAWYERS JUDGES AND FEDERAL STATE AND LOCAL OFFICIALS GET TO WORK,STILL ASLEEP, THEIR MINDS ON THEIR CAR PAYMENTS,THE KIDS COLLAGE AND WHAT THE WIFE HAS PLANNED FOR THEM.RINGERS ON LOUD,AS TO MISS A CALL COULD BE DETRIMENTAL(KEY WORD MENTAL)AS THEY(ENEMY) COULD MISTAKE THIS FOR A “I CALLED DAN,NOW I CAN HIDE BEHIND MY SEVERELY STUPID GAL FRIDAY”.I BEGAN MY SORTIE: “YOU SAY WHAT?”DO YOU HAVE THAT IN RIGHTING? WHEN WILL YOU BE AT YOUR OFFICE ECT.ECT.ECT.YOU SEE I AM NOT JUST FIGHTING FOR MONEY,I AM FIGHTING AN ENEMY WHO HAS HURT AND SEPARATED ME FROM MY WIFE AND KID.A ENEMY WHO ALLOWED “THE DOOM SQUAD”WHO BEAT ME, BADGES, BADGES/WE DONT NEED NO STINKING BADGES!A ENEMY WHO MUST BE DESTROYED AT ANY AND ALL COSTS,YOU SEE I AM FIGHTING FOR MY FAMILY,AS WELL AS FOR ME,BUT MORE TO GET BACK WHAT I LOST,NO NOT JUST THE MONEY, THEY PRINT MORE OF THE STUFF JUST ABOUT EVERY DAY! FOR MY FAMILY!THE RINGER GOES OFF AND THE BATTLE BEGINS,AS MY BROTHER ALWAYS SAID, KILL EM ALL AND LET GOD SORT EM OUT(HE WAS ALWAYS SAYING THE NICEST THINGS!)DAN

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  91. Dan L. Donian

    AS I HAVE A BREAK IN THE “WAR” I HAVE TO ABSOLUTELY HAVE TO MAKE A COMMENT ON “THE REAL HOUSEWIFE’S OF ORANGE COUNTY”: THEY(HOUSEWIFE’S OF)ARE SO FUCKING DISGUSTING,THEY WOULD LITERARY MELT FROM SO MUCH PLASTIC SURGERY,THEY ARE EXTREMELY UGLY AND TASTELESS AND THINK THEY ARE “GODS GIFT”YEAH GODS GIFT SO NO ONE EVER HAS TO LOOK LIKE,OR BE LIKE THEM.IF YOU FIND YOURSELF AT TIMES NEEDING TO UPCHUCK SOME FAST FOOD,OR “BAD” FOOD,JUST TUNE IN,TURN ON,AND THROW THE FUCK UP!ME!

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  92. miss no name

    not a single day does pass that my mind does not wander and wonder what kind of KARMA does KEN VON KLUCK and his successor Scott M. Levin and the invisible Marvin S. Helfand and all those devils at Defrees and Fiske a/k/a Howard and Howard have coming for the evil they have inflicted upon my family…and I wonder how mad Mr. Defrees and Mr. Fiske are at what was done to their good names…

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  93. Dan L. Donian

    This is a statement that is correct and true as well as factual:My Son Caleb Samuel Donian is a man to be extremely PROUD of,he is a smart, sensitive and unbelievably talented successful person.Calebs Mother is a intelligent being as well. Caleb’s Mom had to make a decision regarding many horrible things i WAS doing a couple of years back,i was “messed up”people can we just leave it at that?” As specifics are Family business and PRIVATE.Let us just say Susan did the right thing,and i if in her place i would have taken the same or possibly “harsher measures!”So i just need for my son know not only am i proud beyond beleaf of he,but so very proud of his Mothers actions a few years back”.Daniel L. Donian

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  94. Dan L. Donian

    CALEB DONIAN: Your Dad loves you,and your Mother Rocks!She was right a couple of years ago to do what she did regarding me!Proud of Caleb,proud of your Mother! Dad

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  95. Dan L. Donian

    Heres how the first real day of spring goes:I decided to take a break in the work i have been performing.First i deserve a break today.Second the climate is a HOT 50 degrees,(for where i am that IS hot!)so i worked taking photographs for an up coming city meeting.And i have completed work with some lawyers to rectify a problem or two.So i ate some reel food,had a ginger ale and rested after two separate meetings.Still wearing my worn but pressed blue jeans,my black dress shirt and a strange tile like thin tie.My back hurt quite a bit from taking photographs with the bending and hanging more or less from a tree i had perched myself in to get “the correct shots”I took another shower and put on another pare of blue jeans and another black shirt and the same “lucky tie”I headed out towards the town which was filled to capacity with tourists and locals and the like.Walking at a brisk yet slow maticulus pace i also had my green Vietnam “flack” jacket on.Now i was not ever IN Vietnam,but its like the one John Rambo wore in Rambo.As i monovered past the strollers,old people walking faster than i ,my Cane making a steady ping careful to not hit a crack in the sidewalks i decided to get some Carmel corn(big bag) and some fudge, chocolate. Having purchased these luxurie items without taking off my headphones even to pay i kept on trucking to the grateful Dead great LP “Europe 72” as i headed back i made a left(or right)as to take in the sights on this most lovely/lonely day.I made a semi straight line towards the white hen,which now was a liquor store to purchase some cigarettes.i had decided not to wear a hat since the weather was more than fine(had one hat draped through my belt just in case)I went inside the store avoiding the occasional stroller with mothers who were busy pushing there little monsters around while talking and or texting, oblivious to the surroundings,a doge to the right,then a fast pace to avoid a troupe of “little people(midgets?) Strange,but not however to meas this is a nice day and not a parking place in the whole downtown district.Slowing down to fork down some pain pills or tranquilizers or to light another cig,or down one of my three bottled waters as not to dehydrate i kept on in a more or less forward motion.When i entered the store i was greeted by blaring music a rousting version of the kinks Lola.some bikers the reel kind were in the store.Now most people would not have entered and avoided these types of people.I went up to the counter and asked politely as i could muster for a pack of red Newports,non menthol.One of the bikers remarked that i looked like a musician,an old one he said.i nodded in agreement and stared to head out having obtained not only my cigs but two dollars of quarters so as to do some wash.One of the more severe gentleman further remarked that i looked loaded down.The whole bunch offered to help me back to my semi temporary home at the resort.Once again i nodded in approvement.Two of these guys mounted there fine Harley’s and one guy was on foot,the back of his jacket had a “skull and roses “dead patch”! awesome i said,the guys followed me back home at a slow pace,there bikes roaring with the occasional throttle up sounds.One held my months “treats”passing the lake on our right and a steam that happens to double as a river, right at the be-gaining of a 150 mile line of green blue water that many get enjoyment from canoeing,swimming and God knows what.We parted ways at the entrance just in time to see a family or two headed out for a wedding,young girls starring,there dads giving me “THE LOOK’ and probably telling them thats exactly the kind of guys i told you about if you dont stay in school!As we parted one of the more happy looking guys said to me that my ear to ear smile had “made his day” i happily went upstairs and put on my beautiful guitar my wife had given me and played.Nice day, just a very nice day.All that is missing is my Family.Dan

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  96. Dan L. Donian

    WHAT BOTHERS ME: There is something that bother me,people,individuals who abuse pain medication.Anyone who abuses “painkillers” that so many actual persons(who are in pain)take or obtain medical,legal prescriptions to sell,or abuse in some fashion for their own private gain give the real people who are or can be in horrific pain and subsequently have a hard time obtaining a legal prescription.People who suffer because some fucking asshole wants to “get high” should be beaten with a club to their spine.If i see,(and this is a warning),anyone who sells their medication for money,anyone who “uses” their doctor based upon false pretenses i will personally see to it that they make sure that those people suffer beyond their wildest dreams!And they will wish they died as a baby.As always,Peace.Dan

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  97. Dan L. Donian

    Oh yeah,well what a day from hell today was,phone gets shut off just in time for one of the most important calls of my pathetic life,the state looses mt “drug test(that i passed!)And i find out that my music DVDs and CDs have been “stolen” That i have four dollars in the bank, because i paid everyone except for the one who deserves it most,my $ 2000.00 i could have really used for taxes i paid for the “opposing sides” lawyer?And he aint worth a fuck.Oh yes the positives,i have enough medicine to keep out of horrid pain,i have enough TRANKS to sleep my average 6 hours a night and i Do have two guitars left.My phone was off then on then off again,but i worked it out.I borrowed some more money as the state lost my drug tests and found them,so theres a good chance i WILL eat in a couple of days,and i can borrow money from a whole lot of people for smokes.And i taut my illegal fiend how to play bar chords so i can jam with a nice person who cant speak much English,but knows all the Pink Floyd’s set lists for the last 47 years.When i heard that my “tunes” and DVDs concerts were gone i completely lost it,whatever IT is and i did get out of a phone call where someone was tearing me apart.So goes MY day.And i did not go dive into a liquor bottle. Instead i dove into a pill bottle and beat my pain away,just took another handful as the devil rain pounds away at my skylight.I can sleep late or get up and take my morning Meds and go back to sleep,nothing to do till 1:00pm when a conference call will decide my fate.Never was really mad at this person till now,and being such a “waste case” i always kept love a open option,now that is gone and all i have to live for with it.You could not believe how much i was assaulted today,really a brutal attack was right in my face while i fumbled for words and thoughts.Man “sing me back home”GOOD NIGHT……………….

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  98. Dan L. Donian

    Many friends show up to demonstrate kindness: Many friends show up to demonstrate kindness at the loss of my music collection.When i accessed my I Tunes account two years ago,a lot of my Cd’s i had put into my I-Tunes account never came though i cannot explain this as i had loaded the disks myself.My wife did not ever give me back my I-Pod which contained ALL my music,so i bought several thousand dollars worth of I-Tunes cards and stared over,then one day 3/4s of my library came through,but not all?After many calls to Morons no one could understand why most but not all came in to my I-Tunes account.I was sad,but knew that someday my wife would give me back my i-Pod.Or surely i would face the task of getting my Cd’s back and load them once again.She(wife) informed me that not only was my Cd’s gone,but my DVDs gone some that were never for sale making them imposable to restore.It was then that my world totally turned to black,and would never be the same or even close.Never would i have a family again.For those of you who might say:well thats rather drastic!” I say FUCK OFF!Music has always been my anchor in the storms of life.Now “the game”has changed and i no longer care if i see my family ever again.Peace, Dan

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  99. Dan L. Donian

    I am being pushed to fucking far:One of two things will most defiantly happen.# 1 I will PUSH back harder…..# 2 you don’t want to know: My Family deserves some or half my money ,the lawyers deserve a punch in the face with my emotions behind the punch,it would be better if they jumped off a 22 story building onto cement.Safer as well .me

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  100. Dan L. Donian

    WELL A GOVERNMENT SHUTDOWN:So the FUCK what,like its working anyway.I just got back from a most unusual walk to the lake.On the way i stopped by the bar/resterant to find out if Torri had a boy or girl,and to check if she made it!Several people asked why i have not been righting,you mean people actually read this crap?So i went to the lake feeling blue(sad) after looking at pictures gathered from several sources.My Son Caleb making lego stuff,me on the floor playing with he as i had as much fun or more playing with my Son!Shots of my more than pretty wife,and some faded “classic” pictures of myself with long hair,wait a minute i still have long hair!And my small bald spot has a comb over,whenever i forget the girls around here just break out a comb or brush and without asking cover it up!Thats what i call SERVICE!Many people saw i was a sad item today,and like every time they knew why.They always do! My Doctor G.M. called and made sure i had enough medicine for my weekend So strange,all this attention.So as i walked past a hostess station a extreamly young girl just HAD to show me a picture of herself in her “plain clothes” a white “peasant shirt” with faded blue jeans while explaing she “got high” oh my.While my mind is on my wife and the never ending dream i have where i am allowed to “go home”So begins the weekend.Peace, Dan

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  101. Dan L. Donian

    Well the weekend is here,smack dab in the middle!I awoke to the SAME reoccurring dream.I must give up the hope i have of a “new picture” as this dream(s) continue like a play at a venue than has quite an extended run.Some day i must put it down for all to read,and possibly someone can decode it for me! Thanks for the extremely nice e-mails as to my “posts!” Have a great life and weekend before.Dan

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  102. Dan L. Donian

    Monday:Woke up from the same dream.Went to finish some business.Got home and took my medicine.Sit here and wonder.When will she come around,when will she stop listening to Morons.When will she understand?When will she find out that theres a boy,who to be happy will have to “get his family back” When will she understand what i know?WHEN??????????

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  103. Dan L. Donian

    COMFORTABLY NUMB:”WHEN I WAS A CHILD I HAD A FERVOR,MY HEAD FELT JUST LIKE TWO BALLOONS,NOW I GOT THAT FEELING ONCE AGAIN,I CANT EXPLAIN,YOU WOULD NOT UNDERSTAND,THIS IS NOT WHO I AM.I HAVE BECOME COMFORTABLY NUMB”.”I HAVE BECOME COMFORTABLY NUMB”.I WISH I COULD EXPLAIN WHY,BUT I DID MAKE A PROMISE TO NOT SPEAK ABOUT WHAT I AM GOING THROUGH.LETS JUST SAY SOMEONE HURT ME SO VERY MUCH I CANT EXPLAIN BUT ITS ABOUT SOMETHING HORRID,A BETRAYAL OF THE WORST KIND……. FRIENDS HAVE BEEN CALLING AND STOPPING BY,OFFERING TO COME UP AND STAY WITH ME.I MIGHT DO SOMETHING WRONG TONIGHT.I CANT STOP THE FEELING,ONLY MY MASSIVE AMOUNT OF LEGALLY PRESCRIBED PILLS CAN HELP.MY MOM DID THIS SAME THING TO MY FATHER AND I WATCHED IT DESTROY HIM,SO I AM GIVING NO MERCY TO THE OFFENDER,AS MY FATHER DID TO HIS OFFENDER AND IT KILLED HIM INSIDE.MAKE NO MISTAKE I WILL “STOP THE MADNESS” BEFORE I “GET ALL NICE”AND UNDERSTANDING O THE ENEMY,SURE I COULD TAKE OUT MY ENEMY’S “FRIENDS” BUT WHY SHOULD I GO TO PRISON FOR SCUM. GARDEN VARIETY SCUM. INSTEAD I WILL NOT SUPPORT,NOR TRY TO UNDERSTAND MY ENEMY,ILL JUST LOOSE THEIR NUMBER,CHANGE MINE AND STICK TO THE NEW FRIENDS I HAVE.AND NEVER LOOK BACK,I WILL NOT WALK IN MY FATHERS SHOES.SURPRISE MOTHERFUCKERS.

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  104. Dan L. Donian

    “FINISHED WITH MY WOMAN CAUSE SHE COULDN’T HELP ME WITH MY MIND,PEOPLE THINK I’M INSANE CAUSE I AM FROWNING ALL THE TIME” PARANOID BLACK SABBATH Copyright Warner Brothers music 1970

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  105. Dan L. Donian

    THE JERSEY SHORE,”SNOOKIE”,THE REAL HOUSEWIFE’S OF ANYWHERE,MOB WIFES, TOTALLY DISGUSTING. THESE SHOWS,THE GIRLS WITH THEIR SLUTTISH LOOKS,BLOWN UP BOT OX DEFORMED LIPS,THE GUYS WITH THEIR “FIST PUMPING” DANCES ARE FUCKING HORRIBLE.I WOULD NOT EVEN BE IN THE SAME STATE AS THEY.WHAT MAKES PEOPLE WATCH AND ADMIRE “THESE FREAKS OF NATURE”?THE ATTITUDES,THE “I AM BETTER THAN YOU” FLOW.WHAT THE FUCK,IS THIS SHIT EVEN REAL? INBRED,SCUMMY SLEAZE BALLS.AND ANYONE WHO WOULD GO OUT WITH A MARRIED WOMAN (TOM RYAN)MAKE ME WANT TO KILL.THIS WORLDS FUCKED UP ENOUGH WITHOUT THIS KIND OF ANIMAL LIKE BEHAVIOR!SO DON’T GET NEAR ME OR I WILL KILL YOU.I AM GOING TO FIND THIS TOM RYAN GUY AND KILL HIM.AND HIS ENTIRE FAMILY.PEACE,DAN

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  106. Danny L Donian

    WELL SHES GONE! SHE DID IT,MOVED OUT EAST,I AM TOTALY ALONE.”TIME TO KICK” AGAIN.”CARMELITA HOLD ME TIGHTER,I THINK IM SINKING DOWN,AND IM ALL STRUNG OUT ON HERION ON THE OUTSKIRTS OF TOWN” BACK TO BASICS! OXYCONTIN,OXYCODONE AND VALIUM. SAME THING ONLY LEGAL AND CONSISTENT.TIME TO FINISH MY COMEDY BOOK,AND BY POPULER DEMAND,A BIO OF ALL THATS HAPPENED TO ME,THE GRATEFUL DEAD AND THE MAKING OF THE PEACE TAPES TO “THE BEATING” BY THE SHERIFFS.ALL OVER MONEY.LOTS OF DEAD PEOPLE IN MY WAKE BABY!SO BEGAINS THE LAST THIRD OF MY LIFE……….ALLWAYS GONNA LOVE HER,ALLWAYS……..PEACE, PEOPLE!!!! FOR NOW.DANNY

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  107. Dan L. Donian

    WHAT KIND OF WIFE CHEATS ON HER HUSBAND?A BAD WIFE.WHAT KIND OF HUSBAND FORGIVES THAT WIFE? A CHUMP.WHO COULD EVER TRUST SOMEONE WHO WOULD DO THAT,A MAJOR LOSER,A MENTAL CASE,OR A FOOL.

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  108. Dan L. Donian

    what is wrong! I can tell you what is wrong with the world,at least here in the U.S.A. to much media violence.Cable,T.V. the internet, papers, magazines.All these forms of media are promoting the end of the human race.Whens the last time you saw or heard of a “happy movie” that was not stupid shit?Whens the last time you saw a interesting show that did not have gunshots,gangs or explosions?Whens the last time you saw a movie or t.v. show that did not promote gays or killings?Thats what the fucks wrong.Divorce,cheating on ones spouse,or sex.And our kids watch this crap.drugs or demonised while murder is glamorousness,the 1960s is termed a”wasted” generation. infidelity(of which i had happen TO me)I will take drugs over guns any time.Let the gays be gay,but don’t force them onto to every show.Sex(of which i had plenty) and drugs(which Ive had my share),but i don’t force them on people.The media of which i was part of is showing aliens or wear wolfs or gay wear wolfs and violence on every fucking channel.The internet instead of being a teaching tool is a fucking curse of which we don”t even comprehend the extent of yet.I say bring it down.Before it brings us down,War,divorce,sex and violence is all our kids will remember.You remember the killers names but not the brave police and F.B. I and other government men and woman who catch them.we are on this “death trip” and somebody better do something fast,or we shall all perish from are own negligence.Dan

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    1. quilty Post author

      Hi Dan,

      I’ve been happy to have you post your thoughts and feelings in the comments sections of my blog for the last year or so. Sometimes I have been concerned, particularly when you’ve posted vicious attacks against specific people whom you call out by their full names. But those posts have been relatively few and far between, and I chose to ignore them.

      Now that you’re railing against the “promotion” of gays in the media, however, I’m less comfortable having you stay on here. I’m not interested in censoring you — you’re obviously entitled to your own opinions, long live free speech, etc- – but the fact remains that your opinion is effectively being hosted, even broadcast, by me, here on my blog. And so when you start railing against gays in the media, for example, and attacking real-life, googleable people, my patience for your residence here begins to evaporate pretty quickly.

      Have you ever thought about transferring your thoughts and feelings over to a blog of your own? I’m all about working out one’s feelings through writing — indeed, that’s the main reason this blog exists — but it might make sense at this point for you to start working things out in a journal of your own.

      Warm regards,
      Quilty
      Proprietor, Goodjobbb.wordpress.com

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      1. Dan L. Donian

        I truly am sorry, please forgive me.It will Not happen ever again,and i meant something that was taking out of context,and and now its all this! Please forgive me this one time.Peace, Dan

  109. Dan L. Donian

    I am proud to announce the writing of my new book, untitled at the time(was “Monte Carlo madness”.)It will be done possibly before “orders of protection”is finalized.The book truly is my autobiography and will be complete with picture of the strangest kinds, Rock in Roll legends,my grandfathers origins and friends, backstage antics and obscure photos that will be both familiar and rare.The best reason for the pictures outside of “great pictures of rock stars and troublemakers” is to further prove that my life has been “more than a trip”! “Many of my current friends have told me that the stories that i tell,and the people that drop by to substantiate them are most timely for a biographic rather than my “on the road funny book” orders of protection.I can only state that both books will both entertaining and unbelievable,strange and downright scary.Of course i would love nothing more than to write both books with my wife,who wrote along with me “The Peace Tapes”.I still love her(but don’t tell her!)Susan brings both talent and beauty to the process of writing. Susan left me,but in keeping with my strange tradition we remain married.The new book will start around the time my infantile brain froze 1975 even as there has to be quite a forward to explain my family of from which i was born, from 1975 till 2011, and a little beyond the book will be a tell all,or most all of the strange drugged out existence of my travels and doings and is certain to be a favorite from kids to Grandparents alike.The pictures will serve as both reference points and proof of the madness to which i descended.And so for now PEACE,DANIEL LEE DONIAN

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  110. Dan L. Donian

    Dear readers i truly apologize for my out of control rants about gays in the media.I have to control my thoughts and have allot to offer. Please accept my sincere apology and i promise to convey my thoughts more tenderly.Dan,

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    1. quilty Post author

      Oh Dan, don’t worry about it! I have renewed your lease — you’re welcome to keep calling this blog post comments section home.

      Smiles and cheers,
      Q.

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  111. Dan L. Donian

    DEAR WORLD,I WENT “HOME” TODAY.AFTER TWO AND ONE HALF YEARS,I WENT “HOME”.THE HOUSE WAS EMPTY,EVEN AS THERE IS SOMEONE STAYING THERE,NO ONE WAS HOME HAVING CLEARED OUT FOR A COUPLE OF HOURS OR SO.MY FAMILY HAD LEFT.I WENT HOME TODAY.AS I ENTERED MY BEST FRIEND WAS WITH ME,AND I WENT HOME. APPROACHING SLOWLY AFTER TWO OR THREE WRONG TURNS WE LANDED ON THE CUL DE SAK.I WALKED IN AND MY FRIEND KEEPING AN EYE ON ME AS I COULD FEEL HIS STARE,AS I WALKED FURTHER INTO WHAT WAS A PLACE WHERE I HAD SPENT TEN YEARS OR SO I COULD FEEL THE ULTIMATE TERROR SLOWLY CREEP UP ON MY BEING.WHAT HAD HAPPENED? I COULD HEAR THE SOUNDS OF LAUGHTER AND THE SOUNDS OF PAIN,CRYING AND GENTLE LOVE.AS I GLANCED AROUND,SHORT QUICK FAST CHOPPY PEEKS AT FIRST,THEN COLD HARD STARES, I INSTINCTIVELY DOWNED A FEW PILLS.PAIN MEDICINE FROM THE LONG TWO STATE EXCURSION,THEN A VALIUM TO STAVE OFF THE INEVITABLE CRUSHING FEELING IN MY HEART.MY FRIEND DAVE KIND OF DID AN “OH WOW” WITHOUT SAYING WHAT I HEARD,AN “ARE YOU O.K. DAN”? I WAS FAR FROM FUCKING O.K..DAVE HAS TAKING ME TO BOTH CIVIL AND CRIMINAL COURT AS WELL AS DIVORCE COURT.SO WHAT COULD BE POSSIBLY WORSE? WHAT I SAW,THAT COULD BE WORSE,A PLACE AND TIME I SHALL NEVER FORGET.EVER.WHERE THERE USED TO BE TOY CARS AND ARMY MEN AS WELL AS “TOY STORY” GAMES AND FIGURINES THERE WAS NOW EMTEYNESS AND AND A LACK OF ALL EMOTIONS AND VOID OF HAPPY ANYTHING.NO LAUGHING,NO SILENT MOANS OF PLEASURE,NO CRYING FROM A SCRAPED KNEE.THE RIDE HOME WAS SILENT.I WENT HOME TODAY.DAN

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  112. Dan L. Donian

    What kind of people would take all someones poss-ions.Things there Father and Mother had given them when they were a child.Things various bands and musicians from the Beatles to the Grateful Dead and others had signed for them.Tapes and collectors guitars and books signed by the authors.Stuff that was both rare and sentimental.One of a kind objects and memorabilia that was theirs.Something like that,no exactly like that happened to me.It was not a robbery,nor was it friends who might have been jealous of my being a semi successful film producer,it was my family.I know your supposed to forgive people like this,but i will neither forgive nor forget.i am no longer proud of my former family,i am sickened by the thought that i loved them.They lack the moral fiber to be a part of any society on this or any other planet.It saddens me to think that anyone could behave in such a fashion let alone my own family.Money and greed are not only pitiful motivators,but when people behave like this it really shakes ones be leaf in the world at large.People who do read this should be aware that “hurting” someone like i have been hurt is both wrong and extremely distasteful. Is int it a pity that some people sink to such low levels as to hurt their neighborers and a shame that some people try(and succeed) to break loved ones hearts.Dan

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    1. miss no name

      maybe if you didn’t sell a 2 million dollar piece of property to the VILLAGE OF SKOKIE in May, 2011, for a mere $825,000.00 and pay crooked lawyers, at Defrees and Fiske/ a/k/a HOWARD AND HOWARD over $450,000.00 in attorney fees (straight out of the closing money) for fucking up your life and have your wife and son kicked out of the foreclosed house, the personal property wouldn’t have had to be sold to pay for moving costs..could you have made a worse deal? maybe you could have told the lawyers to wait (and hold their breath) for their undeserved money and paid the money due on the home so your wife and son were not homeless? but you did what you did, so there are consequences to your actions aren’t there? and you got most of your stuff, all that was gone was a few dvds and cds that are easily replaced you winer

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  113. Dan L. Donian

    I HAVE TO SAY THAT I HAVE THE MOST BEAUTIFUL WIFE IN THE WORLD.SHE HAS BEEN THROUGH ALL KINDS OF STRANGE INCIDENTS WITH ME,WE PARTY ED WITH ALL THE ROCK STARS AND SURVIVED SCORES OF WAY OUT PARTY’S AND EVENTS.EVEN AS WE ARE SEPARATED BY THOUSANDS OF MILES I WOULD NOT TRADE THE TIMES WE SHARED AND THE PEOPLE WE WERE WITH FOR ANYONE ANYWHERE.SHE WILL ALWAYS BETHE BEST THING THAT-EVER HAPPENED TO ME.AND WE DID THINGS ONE CAN ONLY DREAM OF.SHE WILL ALWAYS REMAIN “FOREVER YOUNG!

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  114. Dan L. Donian

    Dear world,I have recently secured my Peace Tapes and Yoko Ono Lennon masters as well as around ten to fifteen thousand photos.A lot of the photos will be shared with the world.Most are personal photos however the majority of my personal photos are of celerity’s.Everyone from the Grateful Dead to the Kinks and Ramones as well as The Rolling Stones will be sent free of charge or put up on The Peace Tapes website for downloads.I could easily charge,make coffee table books or send them to the People who are in them,but my age and “not so great health” are determining factors.Films and several formats of film and videos will be next.Of course The Peace Tapes(My wife’s idea!) will be streaming soon.I feel that the overwhelming task will take a few years so i plan to “post” some of the most glamorous and historic photos very soon on The Peace Tapes website even as some of the groups were not part of that specific project. Dramatic backstage photos without to much censorship will be available for the entire world to obtain free of charge,of course the photos will be for personal use and any misuse for advertising will be strictly forbidden of course some but not many will be copyrighted.So get ready for the entire strange days in between photos to be available for ALL to enjoy! Peace! Dan L. Donian

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  115. Dan L. Donian

    THE PAST RISES UP TO MEET THE ROAD:The car was cruising down the country back roads. Two old,old friends were out,one myself,one good friend to pick up a carton of cigarettes from another state.Just driving along listing to the Grateful Dead.The car was sailing past cornfield,farms and rural places that time seemed to ignore.A song comes on the i have avoided for two and one half years.I could feel the “cant breathe” signals of an oncoming panic attack.”Don’t get these often Pat!”my friend asks if he should change the tunes,i give a no nod and continue down the rabbit hole.As we pass a little farmer whose vegetable stand is the farmers whole world,the man waves,i wave back,tears well up in my eyes, sunglasses go on,ahhhh ray ban shield from showing my emotions! As the tears start stemming down my cheeks glaceing my face and slowly dripping slightly bouncing of the council of the now speeding car i grab for a water(always at the ready) It becomes to much work to fool my old friend!Pat and I just recently found each other again in this forgotten land after twenty four years of my marriage and Pats life.Pat sees somethings wrong with Dan.Yeah baby somethings most defiantly wrong, literary gasping for air the car lurches forward and stops by the endless rows of corn fields.”What can i do? My friend asks”As i fumble with my pill container, searching for the correct comanation to get me out of this feeling,i “lock up”. Since Pat and i just re-connected he produces a cell phone and dials Dave who is better versed in my “behavior” “Dan’s freaking out,what do i let him take?” Dave pauses a bit and ” asks what brought it on?”Pat says the name of the tune,and Dave reply’s “have him take TWO of everything he has on him!”Pat fumbles around with the multi colored assortment of greens, yellows and blue pills reflecting the bright sunlight,and takes two of each and every pill and puts them gently in my hands, shaking i down them,a full bottle of water pushes the medicinal re leaf into my stomach and soul. Cruising along slowly the music and roads,farms and horses slowly fade into a slow motion blur.Must not play that one again,i can hear Pat thinking to himself.I never knew i could love a girl this much,anywhere at anytime,I “MUST BE PREPARED I THINK”. Again the music,again the speeding car lurches along the endless path of roads that time had forgotten. Dan

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  116. Dan L. Donian

    TIME TO START LIVING OR DIE TRYING:I watched so many people including me try to “live” in the past.I have been guilty of this for over two and one half years,my life’s been on hold for “my family” who really has does me wrong,yet here i sit,waiting,watching TV, or just hoping my phone will ring and my wife or son or daughter will be on the other end.Times up.I look and act like a stupid collage kid.Time to grab a young girl,take off and act like a total fool,and live again.DAN L. DONIAN

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  117. Dan L. Donian

    THE DOCTOR AND ME:”He gave a long winded pause after entering the room””Hello Danny whats up with you today?” “Oh by the way,we have something to talk about!” I though to my self,this cant be a good thing.I went on to tell the grey haired old gentleman what WAS up with me.No urine test to see if i smoked pot today doc? “No not necessary any longer”(i did not like the sound of that one!) The doctor always or most of the time checks me to see if i have been on my major pain medicine and Valium only,no pot allowed in thus semi backward state.You can be plastered on Oxycontin and Oxycodone and looped on Valium,but no pot(yeah right!)”Dan i would like to put a implant into your back,which you control by pushing a button” “yeah right doc,pushing buttons is what i love doing when i am in pain!”No way that’s going to happen!So Danny you have been on allot of very strong meds for about ten years now,more like thirty years Doc i replied.”I am worried that,well that you might take to much!”(yeah were were you in the early seventies!)”No doc i am starting to like myself finally” Something was so different today,at first(and second) i could not grasp what was going down.”Danny i see you have some cigarettes in your shirt pocket” Doctors do not ever like that,here comes a lecture.I could hear the clock actually ticking as time took a slow down.”what kind are those? are they Newport’s?””i did not know that Newports nade a regular non-menthol brand”(oh my somethings wrong here today,my mind started to race like a out of control car driven by a teenager onthe highway for his or her first time)”Yes Doctor,they Do taste good!”OK ,I have been around Doctors for over thirty years each and every month for meds and i do know this is major small talk,tiny even!” Well Doc no pump,”how about a round of shots,or an epidermal?”No PLEASE just my medicine”Fine Dan,i will be right back with your persciptions.”Oh by the way,do you have Family i could contact on file,i managed a nod towards the yes way.A,well doc anything you want to tell me?Danny,a long drawn out pause as the room fell silent,”You have had a good life haven’t you!”Yes i have had.”Anything on your mind i should know?”Yes Doc,i love my wife and children still,and i get real mad at people who drink and smoke pot now””You should!” As he left the examine room,dressed for surgery as he is a anesthesiologist and was on his way to surgery i felt a moist single tear well up in my left eye,then in my right one as well.By the time the nurse appeared she had my RXs and some Kleenex,the old guy KNEW!It took me awhile to understand even as i knew it then in my subconscious.No urine test,he does not care if i smoke pot(going against the federal narcotics laws)He offered me a pump one puts in at or near “THE END” i am headed for Terrapin Station!Oh well,when i received my perscrptions they were for more than usual.What a long road i thought in the now loud even downright noisiness hospital room.The end brings a new beganing sometimes.trust ever since my wife threw me out is a important factor nowadays! I get it,i see death has no mercy or does it!So for now i pop a few pills and con-tinplate whats up ahead at “The station” and i find a peace i have been searching for for my entire life.Peace to all,and goodbye.Daniel L. Donian

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  118. Dan L. Donian

    I was out on my Birthday and my friend and i went to a place to have a soda.Near Chicago We saw someone we had just met a while back and sat down,a girl, a very pretty girl inquired as if it was my Birthday,i said yes it was.So this girl who appeared to be with some other girls approached me and wanted a photograph of her and myself.I “said yes of course”This happens from time to time.So this girl grabs me and pulls me close and when the camera snaps she plants a kiss right on my lips. OK so shes a little high and that would be it!Well she wants another snapshot with another camera.Again with the kiss smack on the lips,but this time she grabs a little”lower”.AHHH Right,i start to get a wee bit nervous for some unknown reason.The third time i pull back a little and she states that she would like to “party with me”Its pretty apparent that she was doing the white! Well i remember that i am married.My wife has left me and gone far away.My wife has had “a boyfriend” My Wife’s name is Candy short for Candice,and this girls name is Candy as well!So i sate that i was just about to travel north to another state and we(my pal and i) had to get going,well “Candy wants to “go with”.Now there are two schools of thought on this situation one was to leave and blow off a “sure thing” a beautiful girl,who is happy and seductive,and willing to travel.And my wife has said that i should go out with some girls(not all at once).And the other is why should i go have random sex for a night, possibly two just because my wife did? Problems like this have been “popping up” as of late more frequently.What did i do? i said to myself,she gave me her phone number and well i should think this over.I was getting “the your the one i want to be with honest!”from Candy,but in my mind just to “do it” with a girl,without any affection,well that and i still am married would lower me on a mental level,and i do not want to make a mistake that would and could haunt me like i KNOW my wife is haunted.For her there is no way back,and i suffer for my wife’s mistake.i am sure my wife Candy will find someone else in California where she lives with my daughter,but i will have to decide,its not like this place is short on woman! But i am not willing to throw away my dignity for a person,even if a stone cold younger fox,after all i have to live with myself,and that’s forever! Greg Norman

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  119. Dan L. Donian

    SUNSHINE DAYDREAM:As i walked out today,not really expecting much,everything became as clear as nighttime in the desert!i went to the beach in the little tourist town where i now call home.As i laid down just off the beach,i lit an ever present smoke.Dangling from my mouth i had my I-Pod on with rare Grateful Dead(is there any other kind?)As the music and my medicine took me far off, i could not help to notice something was different today!Yes there were horse drawn carriages and people floating on all kinds of water savvy things,yes there were ice cream vendors and lovers embracing each other mixing with the Izod wearing tourists.Oh yes there was all kinds of young kids enjoying endless summer days,music coming from every kind of boat and watercraft. OK there was the “lady of the lake” in all her glory with her paddle wheels spinning at a rate of a gazillion spins per second.All kinds of people passing me by.But today was indeed distinct.My children had come back to me via a computer program called Face book.My check did not arrive and i spent sometime worrying about something i really had no control over.i thought about my Wife’s ranting,which she hardily meant,she a good person,the kind you would be more than happy to please on each and every subject she might want.A kid decked out in tye dye walks up and shakes my hand,no words just a universal”your high and so AM i” kind of gesture.As i start to drift off i cant help but notice where i am sitting a “tribe” of young kids have sat by me?Not saying a word someone asks me for a smoke,i gladly comply,and a few seconds later a girl walks over and gives me two packs of smokes!another kid buys me a hot dog,while another runs out into the crowd and doges cars and horses and wheelchairs and well comes back with a guitar.”how did he know” i wanted one to play today.As i played my way through several Grateful Dead and Dylan tunes,i realized that i was the old man on the hill.Someone i have been searching for my entire life!I was fine in my skin,fine being broke and fine being the old guy with the long hair,the one that others look up to.I found him today, that calm old hippie was me.Dan DONIAN..For Amber lee sunshine and Caleb and Susan

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  120. Dan

    How is Richie havens health anyway? I have a website THEPEACEATAPES.COMRichie Havens is a close freind of mine,and my Wifes for around twenty five years now.Richie Havens has canceled all his shows.People are asking about him.My site has a link,but outside of that,aparenly Mr. Havens wants his privacy.Thats what i tell the many who ask.I really do not know whats going on with Richie,but he sure is entitled to his privacy.Even if i “do know”I cant say.All i can say is we all hope he is allright,and if not that he gets better.Do not forget Richie havens has been on tour since Woodstock! Daniel Lee Donian

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  121. Dan

    How is Richie havens health anyway? I have a website THEPEACEATAPES.COMRichie Havens is a close freind of mine,and my Wifes for around twenty five years now.Richie Havens has canceled all his shows.People are asking about him.My site has a link,but outside of that,aparenly Mr. Havens wants his privacy.Thats what i tell the many who ask.I really do not know whats going on with Richie,but he sure is entitled to his privacy.Even if i “do know”I cant say.All i can say is we all hope he is allright,and if not that he gets better.Do not forget Richie havens has been on tour since Woodstock! Daniel Lee Donian Richie Havens is not performing at this current time.That is all i can say.Daniel Lee Donian

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  122. kristy Ledezma

    Daniel,
    I was good friends with your niece, Rhonda for the time she was in boarding school in Louisiana. Later I ran into her in Houston and tried to cultivate a friendship again and then I completely lost contact. I am so sad to hear of her passing….I had always hoped she moved away somewhere and just didn’t tell anyone. I had been trying to find her from time to time for years and years through cyberspace.

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